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12-26-2006, 09:17 PM
Knowing what I do about the music industry, it is extremely difficult for me to watch the propaganda that surrounds their most "lucrative cash cows."

It has accelerated of late. I can only ponder why.

They bring political messages to attract a following. They connect themselves with charitable organizations to appear sympathetic.

Love songs are written to trigger your sexual programming. To get you addicted. To fantasize about them.

Most of these musicians give neither of their time or money to the causes they want us to support by either requesting airtime on the radio of our favorite song and then afterward being allowed the opportunity to contribute to a "food bank," or paying $100.00 to see a show and then being asked to donate on our way out.

They do not control their assets. The music industry is owned and operated by the CIA/Mafia. Mind control exists within. Many times, managers are handlers/controllers. Sex slaves are plentiful. Ever wonder why so many artists use so many different female names in their songs even when they're married? Ever sit down and read the lyrics to many of the songs of your favorite artist? How 'bout when an artist writes a love song of a lost love and he's married, been married for a long time. Ever wonder where this comes from? They have to use sex slaves to break hearts, to get the "creative juices" flowing, as they call it.

Artists tour non-stop sometimes for several years. Do you think they have this stamina at the ages most of these rock stars are at these days because, well, they're wired differently than we are? Perhaps, programmed differently? Do you think they make the choice to go out on the road for so long? Don't you think by now they'd have enough money and want to maybe take it easy for a while? Do they love music so much that they have to be immersed in it 24/7. I'm talking about their top "cash cows."

They have millions and between all of them they have zillions and could probably end world hunger. But, they do not control their assets.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-26-2006, 09:27 PM
KeeP on SpINNing Blue Bonnet. Is fo shoa bet you am ShaDOW But tHAt no Maattat JuST be Sadder cause he fell offen de Ladder and BrOKe he Bladder?

12-26-2006, 09:31 PM
I don't spin for anyone!

But I see you are familiar with a mind control tactic.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-26-2006, 09:36 PM
Den Go and FukarOO ShaDow, Beachee.

12-27-2006, 10:04 AM
I know what I know about the music industry because I was used within as a "mind control" sex slave. My main handler/controller is a very famous musician.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-27-2006, 11:23 AM
Bundie wants to be a Beachee so far he's been a stankee

12-27-2006, 12:38 PM
Many musicians have roots to the "satanic cult." Many do not write their own lyrics. Many songs/lyrics have "hidden messages" directed at mind control victims. Many musicians, in a subtle way, refer to the "cult" of which they are a part; however, this interpretation would not be as evident to those who were not exposed to the "cult."

Many times, talented and creative children are sought after by the group who wish to exploit their gifts and as a result, you become their prisoner. Fortune and fame is difficult to snub your nose at if you are someone who has had very little. If you are someone who was abused at home, their abuse seems normal. Many times, these children have already mastered the technique of "fragmenting." Many times, their parents have connections to the Mafia, Freemasonry, etc.

One need look no further than Michael Jackson to see how exploited and abused he has been within the music industry and how acceptance of pedophilia by someone famous is normal. Although he is probably guilty, he was not sentenced; and those who have abused him not sentenced either.

The story of Peter Pan is a "mind control" theme. One never grows up. Pedophilia's like children. So no matter how old one becomes within the cult, a child-like alter can always be called out to satisfy their handler/controller's sexual deviant behavior and the sexual deviant behavior of all others whom they are made to have contact with whether it be for blackmail purposes in Congress or not; whether it be diplomatic blackmail in other regions of the world.

It is not a coincidence that Michael Jackson's ranch was called "NeverLand." It is not a coincidence that "less fortunate" children were welcome there. These are their prey. Those without resources to fight them.

I was offered a life of luxury and fame in exchange for my talent. I knew what this would entail. I was also offered MONEY in exchange for my silence. I declined.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-27-2006, 12:55 PM
One of my child-like alters was named Wendy.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-27-2006, 12:58 PM
BlueAngel,

What is the point in all this. Now that your Barbarien has been replaced by his Bondi_, you are conversing with yourself by yourself.

Why?

12-27-2006, 12:59 PM
You are talking to yourself.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-27-2006, 01:01 PM
Apparently not as you seem to follow my every word.

12-27-2006, 01:08 PM
Wrong!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-27-2006, 01:15 PM
Whatever.

And please don't respond.

12-27-2006, 02:02 PM
The evidence is overwhelming.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-27-2006, 02:19 PM
Whatever

12-27-2006, 06:29 PM
The words "little girl" appear quite frequently in the songs of the musician who was my main controller/handler.

In fact, many musicians use these words in their lyrics.

They refer to their sex slaves as girls. As I've said, it doesn't matter your age, child-like alters have been installed to satisfy the sexual deviant behavior of your handler and all those he "farms you out to, shares you with," trades you for. Kind of like being passed around like a hot potato.

We know the sexual programming for females is BETA and the sexual programming for males is ALPHA.

A chain exists. My handler had a controller/handler and quite possibly his controller, too. Male musicians are "sexually programmed" as well with child-like alters to satisfy the chain of command.

We are subjected to pornography and sexual abuse from a very young age. Those with talent are further immersed into the "satanic cult" and exploited for profit. They are owned, operated and controlled.

As I've stated, Wendy was one of my child-like alters.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-27-2006, 07:40 PM
George_Bush wrote:
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BlueAngel wrote:
Continue to reveal yourself even further. WE like this.

In Peace,
BlueAngel


Girls just want to have fun?


Yes, a Cindy Lauper song. My, you do give yourself away. I was "sexually programmed" to many songs as well as programmed to songs that evoked "disinformation" about him. This being one of them.

Although, I loved music, loved writing lyrics, which I believe were STOLEN and given to other artists, I had to STOP listening, because of the programming that was installed.

They took something beautiful and turned it into filth. But, one wouldn't expect anything different from evil beings. If I wasn't going to belong to the "cult," I wasn't going to make it in the music industry. I would be blacklisted.

I have no regrets, as programmed to Fleetwood Mac's song, "what you had and what you lost" to evoke sorrow.

I wasn't about to sell my soul to rock n roll for fortune and fame. I wasn't about to live a life of abuse and control. I am my own keeper.

The programming doesn't work any longer. Like I said, I've deprogrammed myself. Lies are lies when they do not prove otherwise.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-27-2006, 10:01 PM
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this accounts for the voice you and your friend sometimes hear #1
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No voices here. That only happened when I was on the site of a famous musician amongst some of my handlers/controllers from the past; unbeknownst to me at the time. The "cult" was able to manipulate my thoughts AGAIN; control me; insert disinformation as to my past victimization in the music industry. Having access to my codes, keys and triggers, they were able to place me in altered states of consciousness, music/lyrics playing a large part to effect this change.

Thankfully, I was able to free myself from their clutches.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2006/12/27 15:42


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BlueAngel wrote:
No voices here. That only happened when I was on the site of a famous musician amongst some of my handlers/controllers from the past; unbeknownst to me at the time. The "cult" was able to manipulate my thoughts AGAIN; control me; insert disinformation as to my past victimization in the music industry. Having access to my codes, keys and triggers, they were able to place me in altered states of consciousness, music/lyrics playing a large part to effect this change.

Thankfully, I was able to free myself from their clutches.

In Peace,
BlueAngel


Did they save you from the nothing you had become?
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I was never a nothing. But, he is a NOTHING MAN!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2006/12/27 17:52


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I was never a nothing. But, he is a NOTHING MAN!

In Peace,
BlueAngel


Did they save you from the nothing man you've become?
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Does this wake you up inside?
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No, it does not. That is, however, a SEXUAL PROGRAMMING trigger for those who have not been deprogrammed.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

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No, it does not. That is, however, a SEXUAL PROGRAMMING trigger for those who have not been deprogrammed.

In Peace,
BlueAngel


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Continue to reveal yourself even further. WE like this.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

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Continue to reveal yourself even further. WE like this.

In Peace,
BlueAngel


Girls just want to have fun?
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The words "little girl" appear quite frequently in the songs of the musician who was my main controller/handler.

In fact, many musicians use these words in their lyrics.

They refer to their sex slaves as girls. As I've said, it doesn't matter your age, child-like alters have been installed to satisfy the sexual deviant behavior of your handler and all those he "farms you out to, shares you with," trades you for. Kind of like being passed around like a hot potato.

We know the sexual programming for females is BETA and the sexual programming for males is ALPHA.

A chain exists. My handler had a controller/handler and quite possibly his controller, too. Male musicians are "sexually programmed" as well with child-like alters to satisfy the chain of command.

We are subjected to pornography and sexual abuse from a very young age. Those with talent are further immersed into the "satanic cult" and exploited for profit. They are owned, operated and controlled.

As I've stated, Wendy was one of my child-like alters.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

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George_Bush wrote:
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BlueAngel wrote:
Continue to reveal yourself even further. WE like this.

In Peace,
BlueAngel


Girls just want to have fun?


Yes, a Cindy Lauper song. My, you do give yourself away. I was "sexually programmed" to many songs as well as programmed to songs that evoked "disinformation" about him. This being one of them.

Although, I loved music, loved writing lyrics, which I believe were STOLEN and given to other artists, I had to STOP listening, because of the programming that was installed.

They took something beautiful and turned it into filth. But, one wouldn't expect anything different from evil beings. If I wasn't going to belong to the "cult," I wasn't going to make it in the music industry. I would be blacklisted.

I have no regrets, as programmed to Fleetwood Mac's song, "what you had and what you lost" to evoke sorrow.

I wasn't about to sell my soul to rock n roll for fortune and fame. I wasn't about to live a life of abuse and control. I am my own keeper.

The programming doesn't work any longer. Like I said, I've deprogrammed myself. Lies are lies when they do not prove otherwise.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-28-2006, 01:37 AM
If you insist on continuing to say what ever it is you are saying about the music industry, would you mind summarizing it in bullet point format (a maximum of 3-4 points) for those of us who no longer bother to read your painfully long posts.

Thanks in advance

12-28-2006, 09:16 AM
Are you the least bit interested to know who the FAMOUS musician/singer/songwriter is that I speak about?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-28-2006, 09:22 AM
No, not really

12-28-2006, 09:26 AM
Why not?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-28-2006, 09:33 AM
Lets see.

Maybe because I DON'T CARE

12-28-2006, 09:41 AM
Why don't you care?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-28-2006, 09:44 AM
Because you are making it up!

12-28-2006, 09:46 AM
Really, now. And you know this because....

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
12-28-2006, 09:47 AM
You are an idiot.

12-28-2006, 09:52 AM
So, you don't want me to reveal the name of the FAMOUS musician that everyone knows who was my controller/handler/abuser?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-28-2006, 10:43 AM
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Shadow wrote:
Ah, poor Delta_


DELTA is suicide programming for mind control victims. The reason you have pulled this thread up.

Attempts are futile. I was never a "good slave."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 10:57 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
So, you don't want me to reveal the name of the FAMOUS musician that everyone knows who was my controller/handler/abuser?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Quite frankly, I personally would like to hear the whole spin.

You must understand that I grow weary of people like you and Svali.

They tell all the facts and none of the details.

If they were really separated from the Illuminati, this would enact their consciousness toward new ends.

But since they remain in suspended animation, I cannot take them seriously. And I treat them in every way as I would an enemy -- because their psychology is yet that of an enemy.

12-28-2006, 11:09 AM
Quite frankly, you growing weary is of no concern to me.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 11:10 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
The words "little girl" appear quite frequently in the songs of the musician who was my main controller/handler.

In fact, many musicians use these words in their lyrics.

They refer to their sex slaves as girls. As I've said, it doesn't matter your age, child-like alters have been installed to satisfy the sexual deviant behavior of your handler and all those he "farms you out to, shares you with," trades you for. Kind of like being passed around like a hot potato.

We know the sexual programming for females is BETA and the sexual programming for males is ALPHA.

A chain exists. My handler had a controller/handler and quite possibly his controller, too. Male musicians are "sexually programmed" as well with child-like alters to satisfy the chain of command.

We are subjected to pornography and sexual abuse from a very young age. Those with talent are further immersed into the "satanic cult" and exploited for profit. They are owned, operated and controlled.

As I've stated, Wendy was one of my child-like alters.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Then answer me this: If the poetic energies can be used in order to reach the demonic/slave energies, then conversly they may be used to tap into and amplify the angelif/liberated energies.

There are mutiple songs available that work on these angelic energies and can be positive and healing influences.

Instead of ceasing to listen to music, why do you not simply transform the current?

Instead of living your remaining years in suspended animation and inertia, why do you not start acting upon that latent will within you and manifesting the real angelic?

I can tell you this much, you manifest nothing of the beatific or angelic. You energies are solely of the demonic to this day.

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 11:18 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
Quite frankly, you growing weary is of no concern to me.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

In truth, it is your main concern. The bait was set, and you went for it as you must do in your malefic elemental frame of mind. You are as a wild animal, dwelling wholly in the sensory world. And therefore you may be usefully tapped.

Furthermore, all this hooyah about the Satanic influences in the popular/commercial music industry is all well and true.

Albeit, the angle from which the disemination of this information derives is sinister at its core.

It is only designed to shrink the aura of those for whom it is designed.

It provides no real information at all. It is ever nebulous. It is always designed to project and amplify the aureole of Moriah dominion.

It's a reality. But it is an iron feast mingled with clay. And it carries with its own seeds of karmic self-annihilation.

It is elemental and therefore it is both transient and temporal.

12-28-2006, 11:20 AM
Oh, yes, exposing mind control within the music industry and the abuse I suffered in MKULTRA/Project Monarch would certainly qualify me as demonic.

Those who are responsible for this grotesque abuse, I assume you label as ANGELIC.

This, the twisted world you live in.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 11:25 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
Oh, yes, exposing mind control within the music industry and the abuse I suffered in MKULTRA/Project Monarch would certainly qualify me as demonic.

Those who are responsible for this grotesque abuse, I assume you label as ANGELIC.

This, the twisted world you live in.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Then do the following:

1. List the names, dates, sessions in which you were involved during your time in the 'music industry'.

2. List the name of your controller/handler.

3. List the names and locations of the 'cult' with which you were involved -- meeting locations, persons involved, important events, etc...

4. Finally, provide your real, legal name, for the world, for the record.

12-28-2006, 11:27 AM
Those "choppers" over my house appeared as soon as the "suicide" command "DELTA" was given.

Like I said, I was NEVER a good slave.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 11:32 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
Those "choppers" over my house appeared as soon as the "suicide" command "DELTA" was given.

Like I said, I was NEVER a good slave.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

I have requested the information that you offered to provide to us this morning.

I await the answer.

You have gone on record here multiple times concerning this elaborate story of yours.

The 'abused/slave/musician/whatever else'

Now you claim to be free.

If you are truly free, and without intrepidation concerning your former life, then you will seek to do nothing but expose and convict your former abusers.

If you are true, then you will have no problem in providing the detailed information that you have claimed you are able to provide.

I await the answer.

12-28-2006, 11:33 AM
You are delusional to think I would give YOU ANYTHING.

The evidence of my past has always been in safe-keeping.

But, please, don't let US stop you from providing your real name for the rest of the world to know.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-28-2006, 11:35 AM
George_Bush said:

"If you are truly free, and without intrepidation concerning your former life, then you will seek to do nothing but expose and convict your former abusers."

My "former life." You have acknowledged it existed. Tell me what you know.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 11:35 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
You are delusional to think I would give YOU ANYTHING.

The evidence of my past has always been in safe-keeping.

But, please, don't let US stop you from providing your real name for the rest of the world to know.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

You are a liar.

'BlueAngel' is a thinly veiled alter ego.

You are a controller/handler.

You are exposed.

You are as much a part of the 'Illuminati' as you ever were.

12-28-2006, 11:39 AM
I do recall asking Shadow if he wanted me to name my abuser/handler/controller within the music industry, but not you.

She declined.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-28-2006, 11:41 AM
George_Bush wrote:

BlueAngel wrote:
You are delusional to think I would give YOU ANYTHING.

The evidence of my past has always been in safe-keeping.

But, please, don't let US stop you from providing your real name for the rest of the world to know.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

You are a liar.

'BlueAngel' is a thinly veiled alter ego.

You are a controller/handler.

You are exposed.

You are as much a part of the 'Illuminati' as you ever were.

And you have come to this determination based on what I posted above. My, you are quite the detective.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Don't let us stop you from exposing your real identity.

12-28-2006, 11:43 AM
You have acknowledged my "former life" existed. Do tell.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 11:49 AM
BlueAngel wrote:

George_Bush wrote:

BlueAngel wrote:
You are delusional to think I would give YOU ANYTHING.

The evidence of my past has always been in safe-keeping.

But, please, don't let US stop you from providing your real name for the rest of the world to know.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

You are a liar.

'BlueAngel' is a thinly veiled alter ego.

You are a controller/handler.

You are exposed.

You are as much a part of the 'Illuminati' as you ever were.

And you have come to this determination based on what I posted above. My, you are quite the detective.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Don't let us stop you from exposing your real identity.

You are an Illuminist. And I am glad that I now have enough details within my personal notes to compile a general personality profile of an Illuminist.

The profile will not be complete, of course, it will still need elements of polished detail.

But I now have enough tools to put together a general framework for identification purposes.

That is really all I needed. The rest may be accurately surmised through process of elimination.

By means of personality profiling, I will be able to catch the scent of Illuminati activity.

The main work is collecting data on business, family, culture, names, dates and times.

I will not attack until this preliminary work is complete. It may take 10 years, it may take 50.

It matters not how long, only how accurate.

Then when the data and details provide a wide enough field of vision (for mapping purposes), various channels open up. These channels will be used to storm the entire process and finish it with one blow.

12-28-2006, 11:57 AM
Obviously, you have no interest in the grotesque torture, psychological, emotional and mental victimization that "mind control" survivors endured at the hands of our government/military. Or the use of "sex slaves" within the music and entertainment industry.

I shall inform you that there are many others who do have concern for us and KNOW the details.

This is a joke to you! Keep laughing. It won't long.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-28-2006, 11:59 AM
I'm waiting on the information you have regarding my "former life."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 12:05 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Obviously, you have no interest in the grotesque torture, psychological, emotional and mental victimization that "mind control" survivors endured at the hands of our government/military. Or the use of "sex slaves" within the music and entertainment industry.

I shall inform you that there are many others who do have concern for us and KNOW the details.

This is a joke to you! Keep laughing. It won't long.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

I am not without feeling, BlueAngel.

I regret that many have had to endure these tortures.

But, for the greater good, their deaths and the deaths of their masters will ensure life for future generations.

Sacrifices must be made.

I'm sorry, but they and the Illuminati are simply seen as units and bricks in the wall that is scheduled for demolition.

And we must stay on schedule.

You're right, it won't be long. And the reason it won't be long is because the consciousness is expanding toward its potential end.

P.S. As an aside, those who have been victims of torture and abuse have channels of escape and healing if they so choose. If they seek for Christ, they shall find him, and they will be healed.

But if they are false, they will be obliterated without delay.

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 12:25 PM
Your detailed information will be helpful, BlueAngel.

We await your information.

Information.

12-28-2006, 12:29 PM

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 12:41 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
I am a liar. I am sorry that I tried to deceive Fra N. I should have known that my petty pretention would not go unchecked.

The fact is that I'm a blubbering mess of a human. And if it were not for the prozac, I'd probably go barking mad. But in fact, we are already barking mad.

The only reason I'm here is because they force me to be. I hate Frater N. But I also hate my own kind. Not only are my personalities split in half, but my very soul is too.

I simply find it easier to stay evil and debased then to go through the hell it would require for me to actually get out of it.


Thank you, BlueAngel.

I think that is a good start.

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 12:54 PM
I know that's hard to say. And I'm proud of ya, Blue!

Golly, I sures am proud of yas, Blue!

Was real, real brave of ya!

Please, feel free to continue.

You have a listening ear with me, Blue.

I'm always with you Blue.

12-28-2006, 01:31 PM
Music plays an instrumental role in programming, through combinations of variable tones, rhythms and words. Frightmeister Stephen King’s numerous novels and subsequent movies, are purported by credible sources to be used for such villainous purposes. One of his latest books, Insomnia, features a picture of King with the trigger phrase “WE NEVER SLEEP,” (indicative of someone with MPD/ DID) below an all-seeing eye. A partial list of other mediums used to reinforce base programming are:

Pinnochio, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, The Little Mermaid, The Lion King, E. T., Star Wars, Ghost Busters, Trancers II, Batman, Bewitched, Fantasy Island, Reboot, Tiny Toons, Duck Tails, The Dead Sea Scrolls and The Tall Book of Make Believe. A few movies which depict or portray some aspect of MONARCH programming are Hell raiser 3, Raising Cain, Labyrinth, Telefon, Johnny Mneumonic, Point of No Return, The Lawnmower Man and Closet Land.

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I was told by the famous musician who was my handler/controller/abuser that he NEVER SLEEPS. He referred to it as a gift.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 01:38 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Music plays an instrumental role in programming, through combinations of variable tones, rhythms and words. Frightmeister Stephen King’s numerous novels and subsequent movies, are purported by credible sources to be used for such villainous purposes. One of his latest books, Insomnia, features a picture of King with the trigger phrase “WE NEVER SLEEP,” (indicative of someone with MPD/ DID) below an all-seeing eye. A partial list of other mediums used to reinforce base programming are:

Pinnochio, Sleeping Beauty, Snow White, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, The Little Mermaid, The Lion King, E. T., Star Wars, Ghost Busters, Trancers II, Batman, Bewitched, Fantasy Island, Reboot, Tiny Toons, Duck Tails, The Dead Sea Scrolls and The Tall Book of Make Believe. A few movies which depict or portray some aspect of MONARCH programming are Hell raiser 3, Raising Cain, Labyrinth, Telefon, Johnny Mneumonic, Point of No Return, The Lawnmower Man and Closet Land.

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I was told by the famous musician who was my handler/controller/abuser that he NEVER SLEEPS. He referred to it as a gift.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

This list pertains to popular themes in the 70s 80s and 90s.

What of today?


The Matrix
The Simpsons
Family Guy
King of the Hill
Constantine (big time!)

what else?

George_Bush
12-28-2006, 01:40 PM
Ah yes, the Lion King.

Never clicked before...

"He lives in you, he lives in me..."

Interesting.

Shannow
12-28-2006, 03:46 PM
Anyone want to comment on Nirvana's "Smells like teen spirit" ?

Read the lyrics of that for the first time the other night, and it was disturbing as hell...gotta be something in that.

Shadow
12-28-2006, 05:14 PM
Would you mind posting these "lyrics" if you want to discuss them.

Thanks in advance

12-28-2006, 05:48 PM
yO is GoT no MInd bUBBa.

Shadow
12-28-2006, 05:53 PM
I see it's back

12-28-2006, 05:55 PM
Yo Back, FooL.

Shadow
12-28-2006, 06:00 PM
You are a moronic fool!

12-28-2006, 06:01 PM
yO is a FuKEn IdiOTE.

Shadow
12-28-2006, 06:06 PM
You are just an idiot

12-28-2006, 06:06 PM
Err, Henry?

Are you in there, Henry?

Any one in there, Henry?

chchcHeinritchchchchc!

Wake up now, lad.

It\'s time for your chores.

12-28-2006, 10:17 PM
A few comments by musicians about what state of mind they are in when they write a song:

It's one of those songs you don't consciously write - it comes up out of your UNCONSCIOUS or subconscious.

and

In the end you have to be able to look at a song and not know where it came from.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-29-2006, 11:42 AM
How does one write a song when they are UNCONSCIOUS? How do they become unconscious?

As we all know, unconscious means that you are not awake.

How does a musician write a song and, in the end, not know where it came from?

Altered states of consciousness, alter personalities are writing, dream-like states, etc. all affected through the use of mind control techniques such as hypnosis.

Having infiltrated the music industry long ago and as a victim of MKULTRA/Project Monarch, I am familiar with these tactics. They were also deployed on me while on the site of the FAMOUS MUSICIAN who was my main handler/abuser from the past.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 11:58 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
How does one write a song when they are UNCONSCIOUS? How do they become unconscious?

As we all know, unconscious means THAT you are not awake.

How does a musician write a song AND, in the end, not know where it came from?

Altered states OF consciousness, alter personalities ARE writing, dream-like states, ETC. all affected through THE use OF mind control techniques such AS hypnosis.

Having infiltrated the music industry long ago and as a victim of MKULTRA/Project Monarch, I am familiar WITH these tactics. They ARE also deployed on me while on this site, AND of the INFAMOUS MUSICIAN who IS my main handler/abuser from the PRESENT.

In Peace,
YOUR BARDEN

Interesting, BA. YOU seem to be shifting. WE like this.

12-29-2006, 12:02 PM
Obviously, my lyrics are not on this site. Now, are they?

But, I do know where they are.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-29-2006, 12:06 PM
Are you familiar with musicians who use the lyrics from songs written by other artists; change the words around and take credit for the songwriting?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-29-2006, 12:18 PM
Yes, mind control slaves must refer to their handlers as MASTERS or GOD. Or, maybe even their BOSS!

Interestingly enough, while on the site of this FAMOUS MUSICIAN, I once asked if the posters there thought he was GOD?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

LaDominio
12-29-2006, 12:23 PM
Bondi___ wrote:
KeeP on SpINNing Blue Bonnet. Is fo shoa bet you am ShaDOW But tHAt no Maattat JuST be Sadder cause he fell offen de Ladder and BrOKe he Bladder?

You suck at gangster slang btw. And you cant rhyme. I had to say it.

Shadow
12-29-2006, 12:26 PM
what else would you expect from a pimply faced white pre-teen?

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 02:42 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Obviously, my lyrics ARE not on this site. Now, ARE they?

BUT, I do know where they ARE.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

WE know this. WE like this. WE know WHERE they ARE.

BUT you do NOT.

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 02:45 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Yes, mind control slaves must refer to their handlers as BASTARDS or DOGS. Or, maybe even their LOSS!

Interestingly enough, while on the site of this INFAMOUS MUSICIAN, I once asked if the posters there thought he was DOG?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Well, was he a dog?

12-29-2006, 02:45 PM
They are obviously with Sony.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-29-2006, 02:47 PM
Actually, he is a "satanic pig."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 02:48 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
They ARE obviously not with Sony.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Well, yes...obviously. But, more to the question...I was wonderning about where they actually were.

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 02:50 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Actually, he is a "miss piggy."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Interesting. How long have you remained with this controler?

12-29-2006, 03:02 PM
Obviously, my lyrics are with SONY and I refer to him as a "satanic pig." I also refer to him as the "devil in disguise" because of a certain look he has when sporting a goatee and his true to the cult behavior.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 03:07 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Obviously, my lyrics are not with SONY and I refer to him as a "miss piggy." I also refer to him with a "level of disgust" because of a certain look he has when drinking goat pee and his moo to the cute behavior.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

You are an ill person. See an psychologist soon. Seriously.

12-29-2006, 03:09 PM
Obviously, my lyrics are with Sony and I refer to him as a "sadistic pig." I also refer to him as the "devil in disguise" because of a certain look he has when sporting a goatee and his true to the cult behavior.

In Peace,
Blue Angel

P. S. How many amphetamines have they pumped you full of today?

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 03:13 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Obviously, my lyrics are not with Sony and I refer to him as a "miss piggy" I also refer to him with a "level of disgust" because of a certain look he has when drinking goat pee and his moo to the cute behavior.

In Peace,
Blue Angel

P. S. How many amphibians have I eaten my fill of today?

This is just sad. BA, please, for your own health, see a therapist soon.

12-29-2006, 03:17 PM
I would advise you of the same, but you are beyond help.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

I refer to him as a "sadistic pig." I also refer to him as "the devil in disguise" because of a certain look he has when sporting a goatee and his true to the cult behavior.

My lyrics are with Sony. This is the record label that produces him.

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 03:23 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
I would advise you too moo the same, but you are beyond yelp.

In Geese,
BlueAngel

I refer to him as a "miss piggy." I also refer to him with a "level of disgust" because of a certain look he has when drinking goat pee and his moo to the cult behavior.

My lyrics are with Bunnies! This is the record label that reproduces him!

BA, you're starting to gibber. You are also exhibiting symptoms of nervous ticks.

It's time to see the doctor.

12-29-2006, 03:27 PM
For you to think that you have any effect on me is to be a FOOL. The DEED is done. I will not be silenced.

You, are a waste.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-29-2006, 03:31 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
For you to think that you haven't infected me is to be a FOOL. I am wasting in slime. The DEAD are dumb. I will soon be silenced.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Interesting.

You seem to be somewhat disconcerted.

How does this makes you feel? Please...express.

12-29-2006, 08:19 PM
George de tush is jUst Shadoe in draG

12-29-2006, 10:33 PM
When on the site of this famous musician who was my past handler/controller/abuser and while in an altered state of consciousness, the disinformation that I was "programmed" to suicide upon the sight of him or sound of his voice in order to keep us apart, as together we were both witnesses against the government for the abuse I suffered, was reinforced.

The truth is that all "mind control" victims are programmed to suicide upon the sight or sound of their handlers/controllers/abusers.

A few comments made to me on the site were:

WENDY, go take your meds.

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO DO. Never received an answer. Assume it meant suicide.

When I inquired as to why he called me Wendy, I was banned from the site.

At one point, one of the posters ejaculated on my face and said, there, Wendy, how do you like being in a government safe house.

The main player in this particular thread displayed some of the same personality traits as George_Bush. An agitator who appeared to be somewhat schizophrenic and on some kind of adrenaline high.

Some very personal comments made to a poster via email where displayed on the board for all to read.

There were also comments made on the board in order to let me know that they were listening in.

I'm sure this is a "tactic" to keep me from feeling free to talk to my family about my past, or him and what transpired on the site. Similar to gaslighting. An attempt to make me feel unsafe. I'm under surveillance 24/7.

However, my family was here and witnessed my distress and the state my mind had deteriorated into while under their control.

Actually, the most horrible invasion was when the poster who displayed the same personality traits as George_Bush commented on the site that I should scream louder during an orgasm next time.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-30-2006, 01:23 PM
As I've stated, Wendy, WAS a child-like alter. There is another alter, Mary, who is responsible for disinformation, for the spinning associated with the brain receiving too much information at one time to process. A containment alter. A distraction.

Both of these alters have "no power" over my core any longer.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

George_Bush
12-30-2006, 01:28 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
As I've stated, Wendy, WAS a child-like alter. There is another alter, Mary, who is responsible for disinformation, for the spinning associated with the brain receiving too much information at one time to process. A containment alter. A distraction.

Both of these alters have "no power" over my core any longer.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Flooding doesn't work on me.

Barbarien
12-30-2006, 06:17 PM
Drowning might.

12-31-2006, 07:53 AM
This song, "My Angel is a Centerfold," was used to call up disinformation that HE had in his possession pictures that were taken of me in comprising positions and that they would never be released because he was PROTECTING me.

The truth is that there may be pictures that were taken of me in comprising positions and, of course, used to blackmail me into silence. WE know that being a victim of MKULTRA/Project Monarch I was not acting of my own free will.

I was threatened that these pictures would be released if I ever went public.

I was also threatened with a lawsuit for "defamation of character" if I ever accused him publicly without evidence.

I also believe there was a restraining order placed against him in the past.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-31-2006, 04:18 PM
There are many songs that I was programmed to that call up disinformation about my past and/or lyrics that cause confusion so that accessing real memories can be difficult.

With too much information, as is deployed on the masses as well, it can take a long time to sort through all the garbage (screen memories) and get to the truth.

This is a "tactic" not only used on mind control victims, but, of course, on the public at large in covering up the truth. 911 is a perfect example of SPIN. There is a reason they call it spin.

One verse of one song goes something like this, "Well, I got Mary pregnant when she was just 16." As I've stated, Mary was an alter. The one who carried the disinformation.

With this song and particular verse, disinformation about me having had a baby with my handler/musician was called up while on his site.

The disinformation goes like this. We had a baby. Mind control victims have one alter that is actually split in two. A good one and an evil one. The evil alter was "programmed" to cut the baby up when it wouldn't stop crying. I was taken away in a helicopter and institutionalized for this crime. This, to silence us because he was a witness against the government and my abuse. My baby had survived and as long as I remained silent, he would not be hurt by the "cult" and they would not kill his father either.

I believed this memory while in an altered state of consciousness and spent several days re-living torture from the past, feeling, as you can imagine, very depressed, an awful person for having done this to my own child.

It was almost as if I was experiencing the torture they subjected me to with this disinformation and, all the while, saying, "I'm never going to say what you want me to say." I'm never going to believe what you tell me. I know the truth about him. Everything you are telling me are lies. I've seen pictures.

I relayed this information to my husband and children and I'm sure they realized at that time and even before, that the person they knew was no longer while on this musician's site and this story was beyond belief as far as they were concerned.

I'm sure, in the state of mind I was in, the end result was for me to spread these "lies" to people outside my family and appear completely insane.

I believe this story was used to cover up an institutionalization that may have occured, but for other reasons that were produced by the "mind controllers" so that I would be silent about the muscian's true role in my life.

Just silent, period! about all of it!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

12-31-2006, 05:09 PM
Another verse, "stay on the streets of this town, they'll be carving you up all night."

"They say you gotta stay hungry."

This was posted over and over again on the musician's site.

Could be the reason I was unable to eat for a very long time.

I was in my house screaming for someone to bring me food.

I went from a size 10 to a size 4.

"Carving you up all night."

Mind control victims are programmed to "carve on their skin." Self-mutilation to appear suicidal and crazy. Although, certain other etchings on my skin, such as a BUTTERFLY on my left hand were not of my own doing.

Starving one's self to death. Good way to take someone out without any fingerprints at the scene of the crime.

Disinformation in this verse to believe he and I were going to write a book together:

"I'm sick of sittin' round here tryin' to write this book."

and

"MESSAGES keep gettin' clearer. Radio's on and I'm movin' cross the place."

This, so that I would keep the radio on looking for messages which, like I said, carried nothing but disinformation.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-01-2007, 10:13 AM
There was Wendy, the tramp.

Then there was Mary. Not a beauty, but hey, you're alright.

Then there was Rosalita. Daddy wanted her to be with him. It was his ticket out of the poor house. He had one last chance to get his daughter in a fine romance, but Rosalita blew it for him.

They were waitin' for her at the Belleview with their oxygen masks.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-01-2007, 10:56 AM
While on this musician's site, I was once asked, "covertly," of course, if it was time for a "different reality."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-01-2007, 08:17 PM
Is it time for an "alternate reality" is how it was referenced.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-02-2007, 08:19 AM
They get and keep their most lucrative cash cows addicted to drugs. Dependent on them.

And, who supplies them? They certainly don't go out onto the street corner to make a deal.

Once while on HIS site, a message that my LIBRIUM were waiting was posted. This, of course, after intense months of psychological torture.

The "programming" I was suppose to follow was to "Take the Money and Run."

They never imagined that I would be surrounded by a loving family who knew that for me to leave and be alone somewhere would not at all help with my emotional state of mind

But, I also have to give credit to those who "warned" me that the GOAL would be to ruin my marriage so that my support structure would crumble.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-02-2007, 10:25 AM
When I entered this musician's website, I was writing about the "corrupt" government.

Shortly, thereafter, Wizard of Oz programming was posted, such as, "I'm going to get you my little pretty." This was the beginning of altering my state of consciousness.

There was reference to the fact that my user name, which was in lower case initials, should be in upper case. In reality, this is true.

There was also reference made to the fact that GPS tracking was being used on my car.

To instill fear, perhaps, but then the "covert operation" that they were THOSE whom I had delivered information to in the past was deployed.

I indicated that my embedded memories did not allow me to trust HIM. Those being that they would attempt to "trigger" my sexual programming, ruin my marriage, discredit me, traumatize me for life if I ever came in contact with the "cult" again.

All of the above has proven to be true.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-02-2007, 01:21 PM
As in one lyric of a song, "if I heard voices telling me not to come," then I wouldn't know what it was like to lie, to cheat, to steal.

This was suppose to make me believe that the "voices," which is a double-bind meaning in this case, carried disinformation about him and his role in my past as a controller/handler/abuser. This information was installed to keep us apart because we were witnesses against the government. This WAS the "cover story."

The information has proven to be true and was not installed and/or disinformation.

My contact with him and his ilk began in March 2004 and there has still not been any PROOF forthcoming.

Another lyric in another song, "call my bluff." Well, I did. Still nothing.

A lie is a lie is a lie until proven otherwise.

The double-bind message is that "the voices" are what causes a schizophrenia type personality leading to emotional exhaustion, confusion, inability to concentrate. THERE IS TOO MUCH CHATTER. TOO MUCH YAPPING.

This has passed.

Schizophrenia can be created in laboratories by mind control doctors. Ultimately, a silencing, neutralizing and containment disorder with ultimate goal of institutionalization and discrediting the victim.

A psychotic break-down.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Another verse in another song, "Honey, I want the heart, I want the soul, I want control right now."

This to me represents evil. Who the hell wants someone's soul unless your a soul sucking blood sucker?

01-02-2007, 05:35 PM
I read somewhere that this musician always spoke about his father as if he were a demon. I know from past memory that he was a prison guard. His sister was on the website and stated once that, "Daddy was a Freemason."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-03-2007, 12:40 PM
Since WE are identified at a very early as to our talents and where they might work best for the Illuminati, if we are musically inclined, programming to tones, etc. begins at a very early age.

We are immersed in whatever field it is they are grooming us for so that by the time we are ready to fulfill their agenda for them, we can, in the eyes of some, appear to be genius in our field.

As in Freemasonry, they will raise you up the ladder until the desired outcome. Until you have reached your peak and have been accepted by the public. They will always have something to blackmail you for if you ever decide to speak out against them or leave the cult. Overdose of drugs, small plane crashes, etc.

As far as the music industry, if you are constantly exposed to sounds, tones, music, etc., at a very early age, and you were blessed with these talents, it becomes a part of your subconscious and a triggering mechanism that can "alter your state of consciousness" and enhance the "creative juices."

If you live within the "satanic cult," a dark world of despair, there is much that you can write about within reason that does not expose them completely. This, too, is another way for them to exploit talent.

Afterall, lyrics are written from experiences and, many "rock" musicians write lyrics that speak of tunnels and the other side.

I remind you though, however, that it is not a natural occurence. It is achieved through mind altering drugs, hypnosis, altered states of consciousness.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-03-2007, 12:46 PM
Bump!

01-03-2007, 01:16 PM
One should note, that the "programming" I and many others were directly exposed to having been incarcerated in the "satanic mind control cult," particularly as it relates to "BETA," which is sexual programming was realized in us much earlier than in the masses due to our direct enslavement.

As we know, it begins with exposure to the masses, especially targeted at our youth, with sexual imagery on television and in songs. This doesn't exclude "programming" that is geared toward violent tendencies in music and cinema.

The end result is the demoralization of the human race. No inhibitions. The process began during the 60's with the sexual revolution, the BEATLES, in particular and the Woman's movement.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-03-2007, 06:26 PM
There were many "screen memories" planted about accidents in order to account for the amnesia that they were inducing through drugs, hypnosis, torture, etc., because I was always inquiring as to why I could not remember certain things.

I'm not sure if these various screen memories abouts accidents were to cover up the fact that I myself may have actually been cut up from head to toe by someone, broken bones and near death, with a breathing tube and in a coma or not. Or, if they were to cover-up the near death experiences that they perpetrate upon their victims at China Lake Naval Base.

It was said that I was traumatized by the cutting up of my own child. It created amnesia and the catatonic state that I was in. I may never recover all of my memory is what was said. However, I believe this is the state I was left in when I returned home if I was institutionalized and it was most likely not for the "false memory" of having cut up my own baby.

It most likely was due to medical conditions created in me so that I could be institutionalized and brought to silence.

There was mention on his site about him having had a motorcycle accident. When I inquired as to specifics, I was ignored.

This brought up the "screen memory" that we were trying to escape the cult, we were "blinded by the light" of an oncoming car," actually two meanings here, because they use really bright lights to disorient their victims and cause visual disturbance for the future, as well; and also when you are being run down in a field naked by low flying choppers, when cornered, they shine their bright lights in your eyes. You can run but you can't hide.

So, we crashed on the side of the road and were left for dead. Passerbys found us. I was hospitalized. Broken bones from head to toe and in a coma. Coma, of course, the reason for my amnesia.

Back to the choppers. They did this with choppers when I was a child as well. They would fly over our neighborhood and their lights would be directed into our home. My mother would always say, "Oh, they must be looking for someone."

As a child, there were also times when we would have to close our windows, stay inside when planes would come through spraying insecticide for mosquito control.

I always found this odd. I'm not sure if this is how it was done or not. But, I have always been suspicious about this.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

I think I spent my summers at the farm and the cover story was "vacation summer bible school."

I also spent summer months in Naples with several other children from our neighborhood. The adults there, Sis and Walt, were friends with my girlfriend's parents.

We were on our own most of the time and I don't believe we stayed there.

We stayed in a trailer on a VAST area of land. Acres and acres.

01-03-2007, 07:28 PM
DID HE DO IT?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-03-2007, 08:10 PM
There were always "warnings" about how if I didn't keep my mouth shut, I was going to be the one responsible for getting our family killed.

This was not to be!

So, there were threats about cutting out my tongue. Which were so real that I would hold my tongue with my fingers to see if this happened, could I still speak.

There was talk about having a mock funeral because one day I would wind up kidnapped, cut up in pieces, fed to the sharks, body parts undiscovered and they wanted a proper burial, so this the reason for a mock funeral.

All of me was there.

I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but a discrediting factor is that the doctors refer to themselves as creatures from another planets, aliens and when this is repeated as they want it to be, the child and/or adult is discredited. They say this, "we are all creatures from another planet." Now, go tell that to your friends.

I do have some scars on my wrists that I never noticed until about five years ago when memories began to surface. And other markings that resemble faces. A very large marking that seems to look like some kind of characature on my right leg.

I have a clear memory of my sister reaching under the bed and cutting herself on razor blades. I also have a clear memory of it being said, that the cut wasn't deep enough. Someone was instructing someone on how to cut deep enough to puncture the artery so that I would bleed to death.

The cover story was that my other sister was a cleptomaniac, put money under the bed that she took from the kitchen table and razor blades, as well. My older sister reached under for something and cut herself. Money and razor blades!!!

I also have a memory of someone coming into the house and wearing a stocking on his face. This may be a "screen memory" for what I refer to as the "razor blade" incident.

I truly believe I was being told to cut my wrist and I wouldn't. I remember saying that I wasn't going to kill myself. They would have to do it and the BLOOD WOULD BE ON THEIR HANDS.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-03-2007, 09:54 PM
There are several high-profile politicians whom I believe I was used to sexually blackmail when I was very young.

These names were released on the musician's website and the next thing I knew he was campaigning with one of them.

Even dedicated a song to him at one of his shows recently and the title of the song was a "female" name.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-03-2007, 09:56 PM
Ironic, isn't it? When I was on the site of this famous musician who was my past handler/controller/abuser, I sent an email saying that I felt like I was being watched.

The reply I received was the lyrics to "The Police's" song, "Every breath you take, every move you make, I'll be watching you. You belong to me.

Now, that is truly the definition of a stalker.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-03-2007, 11:17 PM
The process of sounding a flute or a flue-type organ pipe employs an airstream directed at an edge. However, the process differs so much from the process of directing an airstream on an isolated edge that it is modeled in different ways and different language is used to describe it. Rossing's Science of Sound uses the term "air reed" to describe the situation in which the oscillating air stream is the means for excitation of the pipe sound. In using the "air reed" terminology, it is pointed out that the oscillation is controlled not by pressure, but by the air flow. The edge structure represents an "open end" for the pipe, and thus is a pressure node. The open end is an antinode for air motion (air displacement antinode) and this maximized air flow associated with the standing waves of the pipe can drive the oscillation of the airstream. By contrast, the mouthpiece end of a clarinet with its reed constitutes an acoustical "closed end", a pressure antinode which provides pressure feedback to help stabilize and control the reed oscillation.

The description of the excitation process as a "flow-controlled valve" or "flow-controlled oscillator" dates back to Helmholtz in his investigation of cavity resonance. The tone you produce by blowing over a coke bottle involves air oscillation in and out of the mouth of the bottle which can be described as "flow controlled". When the air is flowing out of the bottle, it directs the airstream outward, and when the airflow associated with the resonant vibration is inward, it directs the airstream inward to provide energy to sustain the oscillation. Helmholtz described the flute excitation in the same sort of way, with the air motion from a standing wave forcing the players airstream out of and into the flute periodically.

Benade comments on the shortcomings of Helmholtz's model, explaining that the player's airstream lags considerably behind these air motion changes from the pipes standing waves. He cites the work of Coltman and Fletcher as clarifying some of the details of the "flow-controlled valve" action at the flute's embouchure hole. Their work highlighted the importance of the transit time from the players lips to the side of the embouchure hole and its relationship to the periods of oscillation of the sound components (harmonics) present in the tone.

Hall discusses the nature of edges and the excitation of organ pipes. The role of the eddies or swirls in the air at the edge is explored and some illustration is given of feedback mechanisms which presumably contribute to the oscillation of the airstream and help with the sounding of the pipe at its resonant frequencies.

The difference between the "edgetone" as envisioned in the sounding of a flute, recorder, organ pipe, etc. and the tones produced by directing air over an edge which is not coupled to an air column has been a subject of considerable discussion and investigation. Benade comments "Until recently there has been a tendency ... to confuse the sounds produced by blowing a narrow air jet against a sharp edge when the edge forms part of a flute or an organ pipe (air reed behavior) with those produced when the system is run in isolation (edge-tone behavior). In the latter case a type of repetitive eddying called vortex shedding takes place on alternate sides of the air jet, and a sound is produced if a sharp edge is used to separate the two sets of vortices. Vortex phenomena have only a secondary influence on flute-type sound production; moreover, at ordinary musical blowing pressures the edge-tone frequencies are so high as to be nearly inaudible".

01-04-2007, 07:29 AM
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In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-04-2007, 08:06 AM
You require a note from your mental health care professional.

01-04-2007, 08:09 AM
Obviously, the last couple of posts that I made on this thread are reason for your visit here.

This is evidence that the TRUTH is being spoken and you are an attempt to BLOCK it.

You will fail and the TRUTH will be revealed for all to KNOW.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-04-2007, 08:12 AM
I just got bored. And we both know you were hoping that I would post on your mind numbing thread, so I did.

NO NEED TO SUMMARIZE. IT WOULD STILL BE TOO BORING.

01-04-2007, 08:13 AM
There is no HOPE for you.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-04-2007, 08:17 AM
There is no Glory for you

01-04-2007, 08:18 AM
I feel glorious.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-04-2007, 08:24 AM
I geel Florius

01-04-2007, 11:54 AM
Bump!

In Peace,
Blue Angel

M0ngoose
01-04-2007, 12:02 PM
In my mind music is very influential. The kind of music u listen to can say alot about a person.

Isnt the devil the angel of music?
so i feel music can be used for good and evil. folk music no negatives, rap music very negative. If i was to walk on a school grounds and started speaking the lyrics that are in songs say by eminem id probably be arrested.

01-04-2007, 12:35 PM
There is one song which speaks to the never see the light of day and another that speaks to masks being worn by perpetrators.

As I've stated before, I stopped listening to music for this reason.

There are triggering mechanisms built in and disinformation contained within some of the lyrics.

There is one that mentions, "tripped the merry go round." This may be responsible for the "spinning" of disinformation.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-04-2007, 03:29 PM
It came time for me to tell HIM that he could no longer OWN me, that I didn't want any part of the "cult," and it was said that there wasn't any way to escape it. I would be killed.

It came time for me to tell HIM that I had shared information with others on the INSIDE.

This, I believe resulted in an institutionalization that left me in a catatonic state and was around the time that I was 17.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-04-2007, 04:56 PM
Music is very influential especially when used as a mind control programming tool on the masses.

It doesn't matter what the brand.

Although, HE has produced some folksy stuff, his roots are rock n roll.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-05-2007, 09:32 AM
It has always been my contention that I shared knowledge/intelligence with INSIDERS not of the "occult," but those who knew of their existence.

When entering the musician's website, I, in fact, did not make mention of this.

The "covert operation" that they where those whom knew me from the past began shortly after my appearance.

One of the first sexual programming triggers directed toward me personally was, "It's Hammer Time."

Since this was a sexual connotation that he used on me in the past personally, I found it odd, if HE/they wanted me to believe he played some heroic role in my young life, this would be posted on a public forum.

However, in the "cult," privacy does not exist.

I was always referred to as a PRUDE. As if there was something wrong with that.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Other "sexual programming" triggers. "What's for dinner?" "Come to Papa" or "Come to Daddy."

These men are pedophiles and the child, daughter role is played out.

01-05-2007, 09:50 AM
I was also told via email from someone on the musician's site to SLEEP DEEP.

and

via email from someone on the musician's site, there was an attempt to illicit a nude photograph of me via webcam.

All while under an altered state of consciousness.

I was also told that I was never alone, this, not as a comforting tool, but to instill the fear of always being watched and to deploy the CHATTER.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-05-2007, 09:54 AM
There is a song with the verse, "you can hide 'neath your covers and study your pain."

This, to neutralize me. I found myself in bed for days reliving torture from the past.

Another verse in a song, "cover me," something like the "whole world is trying to score."

This, to reinforce the action to stay underneath the covers and hide.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-05-2007, 09:56 AM
Another verse in a song, "is it me baby, or just a brilliant disguise."

This, to reinforce that others were pretending to be him.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-05-2007, 07:57 PM
There is information/disinformation about a possible trial that I am sorting through. Whether real or not. There is information about other people accepting money and a GAG order being placed upon them.

This may be connected to the razor blade incident.

There is information about me not accepting any money so that I would not be prohibited from speaking about IT at some point in my life.

Perhaps this is the point.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-05-2007, 10:47 PM
The disinformation is that his name and memory was tortured out of me so that we could not be witnesses against the government.

I sit in a wooden chair and I am strapped in. I am hooked up to an electricshock machine. There is a man behind me who has a finger and a thumb on the pressure points in my neck.

Each time I say his time, I am shocked. I clench my teeth and my body tightens from the shock. My head is forced down. My body is jolted.

I tell them adamantly that I am never going to forget his name or what he did to me.

They tell me that they have ways of making people forget. When they are through with me, I won't remember my own name.

As I spit his name out through clenched teeth, my mouth is trembling.

I try to resist their force.

They say, let us hear you say his name again. My head goes back from another blast of shock.

I tell them they might as well just kill me because I am never going to forget his name, his face, or THEM!

I am told that the "razor blade incident" was a forbidden subject. He was a forbidden subject. I would never speak of him again.

I return home and breakthrough memories occur. I think anger sometimes helped me not to "remember to forget."

I am sure there continued to be contact with him as I remember that he delivered his first truly successful album to my home and further disinformation and control was implemented.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-06-2007, 09:17 AM
Verses; Double-bind meanings:

"You walk with your eyes open, but YOUR LIPS THEY REMAIN SEALED."

Not any longer!

"You always let that medal you wear on your chest get in the way."

I wear my medal with honor and pride.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-07-2007, 05:22 PM
Before I entered this musician's website, I had been having memories of my past for about two years and one "false" memory was that I undergone a sex change operation.

I dismissed this, of course.

However, while I was on his site, and in an altered state of consciousness reference was made to this.

Although, I was altered, I was still somewhat in control of my core and reality. This, a TOOL that I had learned as best as I could in the past so that I could return with information. SO, that they could never OWN me completely. So, that I could be a fly on the wall.

To my benefit against their attempt to make me appear crazy, I did not respond to this reference.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-07-2007, 05:30 PM
If they can penetrate one's mind with EMF and if this was tested on me in the past and if they can play games through television and media so as to make ONE believe they are clairvoyant, this is to their advantage.

A reference to my "clarivoyant" abilities was made as well while on this musician's website.

I recalled this before the reference on his site and again, I sat on it.

As I said, this can be acheived through penetrating one's mind, through penetration of walls for spying, knowing what is being spoken about and then writing about it, etc.

It is similar to "gaslighting."

One must remember, if this was accomplished when I was a child, penetration of mind, then certainly it is highly advanced at this time.

A child making claims of this sort and claims of aliens is certainly going become stigmatized. But, then again, this is their MO.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-07-2007, 05:34 PM
I made reference to a musician who stated that he sometimes writes from the unconscious. I remarked, this is when you are not awake.

The unconscious is what stores those memories we are unaware of and memories that are too painful for us to remember. It is the brain's natural defense mechanism.

A verse: "what's too painful to remember, we simply choose to forget."

Often, these memories can be brought to the surface when a person is taken into an altered states of consicousness, such as in hypnosis. During hypnosis, an individual can recall unconsicous memories, real or "disinformation."

In my case, I was in an altered state of consciousness on his site, and codes and triggers were being used to call up the disinformation that THEY KNEW had been planted.

An attempt to discredit me.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-07-2007, 06:17 PM
Reverse psychology is used when one is under the control of another as in the "satanic cult."

If a remark such as the following is made:

"You are never alone," which was made on this musician's site, it can implant the thought that you are alone or call up the chatter or the fact that you are always being watched and listened to, inside your house, outside of your house.

Or, a remark such as, "I want you to not be afraid of your past," can do the opposite. Suggest to you that you should be afraid when perhaps you weren't.

This is what THEY have always wanted. For me to be alone and afraid.

I'm sure my computer is infiltrated.

When I was emailing someone after HE/the musician and his ilk had brought me to the brink of suicide through emotional abuse, etc., I told him that I felt like dying.

I was outside on my porch wearing a white robe and when I checked the site, HE made a remark about this. Do you always wear a white robe in the daytime? This, right after a helicopter had flown over my house.

After walking with my husband in the neighborhood and helicopters flying overhead, he commented that he was out of there, bringing me to that point of emotional distress.

Afterall, he was my connection to the past. He had the evidence, but if I was with my husband, it was all over between us.

He then returns making jokes about the white robe and now all of a sudden everything is okay again.

My controller had the ability to make me sad, make me happy. He had CONTROL of my emotional state of mind. He had control because he was my handler from the past, I was a mind control victim, and because he brought up disinformation about him being the one to whom I was passing knowledge/intelligence.

I was, in a sense, being held hostage against my own free will.

He falsly claimed to be what he is not!!!

Are you seeing how this works?

Since when does LOVE have to be involved? What's love got to do with a matter involving criminal activity perpetrated against citizen's by the "rogue CIA?"

Nothing!

In this case, it was a condition. And I did not meet the condition.

This person I was emailing about my past made a comment about tapes, when I inquired as to why they don't kill me.

Shortly after, the musician posted on the site, WE HAVE TAPES TO PROVE IT.

I was used as a muse which is commonplace with sex slaves in the music industry.

Read lyrics. So many have the same themes. So much hurt, pain, darkness, mirrors, lonely, thunder, rain, etc., etc., etc. READ some of your favorite rock musician's lyrics.

I received an email from someone on the site stating that his muse (ME) had left him flailing. Again, guilt on me when all of HIS actions were reprehensible.

It may have actually been in my word program. Many times previously written lyrics while on his site, would show up in my email or word program and this was not of my own doing.

There were several times when I was "triggered" to pack my bags. When I look back now, I am amazed at the state of mind I was placed in. I was actually packing my bags and thinking we were going to be together.

When this did not occur, it was to call up the false memory that my parents were always telling me to pack my bags because I never knew when he would be coming.

When he didn't, the hurt, the pain was of their doing.

In actuality, this is the "muse" part of it. The hurt, the pain were from his doing and from this lyrics are born.

Many of his songs speak to meet me here, I'm coming, etc., etc.,

So, when I was young, I was programmed to believe that when these songs were on the radio, I should be ready for him.

Of course, this did not materialize. It was a way to keep me in an emotional state of distress, hurt and pain.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Some of the songs that are not his, but are suppose to be from him to me occurred when I would sit by the radio in the past and a helicopter would fly over.

RADAR ONE is one!

HE said since we couldn't be together until I was better, every love song he ever wrote would be for me and that we would speak to each other through music.

So, I would write back and I believe leave my lyrics/songs somewhere for HIM to pick up.

Once on the site, it was said I was going to receive a "taste of my own medicine."

This, when I refused to stop having intimacy with my husband.

Of note, mind control programs, the FEDERAL RESERVE, etc. were never spoken about while I was on the site.

I was the only person to do so.

There are many songs by other musician's who are, too, a part of the cult and they contain lyrics to keep me confused as to whom my BOSS was.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-07-2007, 06:42 PM
Then there were those times when HE would post blank comments as if he were sad.

One poster replied to him, "You committed perfidy. Suffer in silence."

This is a trigger of course for mind control victims. We are suppose to and we were told to suffer in silence. We were not allowed to cry or to speak to others about our pain.

This same poster made a comment about me having more intelligence than him/her and indicated that I should be doing something about it because there were SPOOKS sitting on the fence.

A FEAR trigger, SPOOKS! Instilling the fear of death another MO.

However, no information as to what exactly I should do was offered. No guidance, no suggestion.

And, while I was in a state of fear, after Kerry made a statement, "Help is on the Way." So, to, did this poster. Materialization of help never prevailed.

Just a ploy to keep me SUCKED in!

When, I felt suicidal, songs would be posted, but they would have double bind meanings. Like, my baby's alive, oh, no, my baby danced herself to death.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-07-2007, 06:58 PM
I'm sure they were hoping that with my bags packed, I would leave my husband as there was no indication they intended on showing up on my doorstep with any proof as to HIS innocence in my past.

There were comments made that they had my back, because I remarked that I didn't want to be alone.

Had this been accomplished, in my emotional state of distress, altered states of consciousness, with sexual programming triggered, and alcohol a main topic on one of the threads on HIS site, their plan that I become sexually permiscuous like my child-like sex slave, Wendy, who was the tramp would be the way to ruin my life and discredit me.

Hotel California was posted many times...

verse, "we are all just prisoners here of our own device."

"In the masters chambers, they gather for their feast...."

Another verse in a song by the Eagles, "don't look back, don't ever look back."

There was false information planted in the past about HIM having been with Streisand and this was referenced on the site. I sat on it.

When I indicated I wasn't financially capable of supporting myself, there was a thread posted, "that I needed help." I did not respond.

I can't imagine what this would have entailed.

There was also this remark about HIS JEALOUSY, which was to trigger a mechanism in me to be overly jealous of him with his wife, with fans, etc.

To that end, this has been beefed up recently. However, it is null and void. It was short-lived after realizing it was "manufactured," and the truth about the "operation" and HIM became clear after I broke free and regained control of my life and mind.

At first, I thought this remark was truly about HIM because of his actions when I did not cease and desist from intimacy with my husband.

Do you see how sadistic this is?

The chatter about being OBSESSED with him appeared.

I couldn't figure this out at first. This voice repeating, "she's obsessed with him." To understand now, is to understand this is what they wanted. For me to appear like some obsessed crazed fan.

This, of course, programmed from the past and it may have been my downfall then, but not now.

When I first entered the site, I truly had no interest in anything other than speaking the truth about our government.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-08-2007, 10:15 AM
To clarify:

SONY had a website with forums, boards, chat rooms, however you chose to refer to them for the many musicians which they HANDLE.

You simply clicked on the name of the musician and were taken to their website.

The website of this particular musician of whom I speak was referred to as his OFFICIAL site, sponsored by SONY, and there were several discussion boards.

The forum/board that I reference in my postings was the POLITICAL discussion board.

HIS SONY forum has been re-located to another website that claims not to be HIS OFFICIAL site and is not sponsored by SONY.

A political discussion forum still exists along with other forums unrelated to politics.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-08-2007, 11:30 AM
This addresses a post in another thread and a comment by me about the relocation of his OFFICIAL SONY site:

Relocation, yes! CIA, yes! But, I would never refer to those THINGS as ASSETS!!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-08-2007, 12:53 PM
Thunder has some kind of role in the fear factor along with weather changes. I was terrified of thunder for a very long time. It was said that the GODS were mad. This is programmed into victims and you can see the prevalance of words like thunder, black sun, rain, etc. in musician's lyrics.

It also was a "mood altering" mechanism. To alter your mood, consciousness is the theme of the cult. So that you are never in control of how you feel, act and behave.

There is one particular verse in a song that is quite disturbing to me. In fact the entire song is disturbing and calls up "suicide commands."

"for the ones who had a notion, a notion deep inside that IT AIN'T NO SIN TO BE GLAD YOU'RE ALIVE...."

So, basicially the verse is saying that it is a sin to be glad you're alive. Your notion is wrong.

This is double-bind meaning.

I said so many times during my youth how I wished I were never born.

So, this verse speaks to that. It brings up the words, "I wish I was never born." IT brings up those memories of crying as to my predicament. Feeling helpless.

What it really means is that your notion that it isn't a sin to be glad your alive, is wrong.

It produces, this: Well, you can always kill yourself, if you wish you were never born.

It produces despair and sorrow over the atrocities of my past.

Another mood altering mechanism.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-08-2007, 12:58 PM
The scenario back then was that we couldn't be together because I had been brainwashed against me, but I should wait for him. One day it would happen.

I was left in a dream-like state, altered state of consciousness.

Many musicians writes about dreams. This is prevalant. It is commonplace to be tranced in a dream-like state.

Their themes are about hanging on to a dream, making a dream real.

Well, the dream HE wanted me to hold onto was never to materialize.

He would never talk to me, never make contact with me.

Is this what I wanted? Did I want to spend my life living in a dreamworld waiting for someone who was going about his life and would never connect with me because I had been deceived.

So, I went about my life as best I could as I was advised by the OTHERS.

And, here I am.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-10-2007, 08:37 AM
There was a point on the site when I was feeling apprehensive about the assertions as to his "INNOCENCE" in my past.

I was being manipulated, controlled, placed in altered states of consciousness, but, as in the past, I did not lose control of my CORE personality entirely. I was able to stay aware and alert to a certain degree.

Had this not been the case on the site and in the past, I would not be who and where I am today.

There is a feeling that comes over one when THEY are attempting to SWITCH you. This is how I referred to it then and now. SWITCHING you from one alter to another. SWITCHING you with the snap of their fingers, commands, etc. SWITCHING your state of consciousness, state of mind, calling out alters, etc.

This never sat well with me. I wanted to be in CONTROL of myself.

I fought this always. I fought their hypnosis. I fought their ability to have control over my CORE personality. I believe this is what SAVED me from being a total MIND CONTROLLED SLAVE.

A poster on the site asked of me, "who lied?" The disinformation about me having been brainwashed against him by THEM because he was a witness to my abuse was called up and I responded, "THEY lied and NOTHING will keep us apart.

Having been "programmed" not to speak his name, I PMed a poster on the site who had communicated with me and typed his name over and over again in an effort to eradicate the FEAR associated with him.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-10-2007, 08:50 AM
I had a memory shortly after I AWOKE to the reality of my past about BOXES of documents, evidence being in the possession of OTHERS.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-10-2007, 09:52 AM
Fear can cause the fight or flight response. A certain amount of fear is a good thing. It alerts you to danger.

After my last comments, I am experiencing the FLIGHT response.

The reality of his involvement causes a feeling that I need to FLEE and/or hide. Like I was born to run or something.

I was "led" to believe that this fear/flight of him was instilled in me so that we could not be together so as to be witnesses against the goverment and their abuse.

It was implied that I went missing from him in the past or that I was kidnapped from him. This is disinformation to cover the real memories that I would go missing from my house for days and then have no recollection of whom or where I was or at least not tell my parents. It is also disinformation to re-enforce the implanted memories that the INSIDERS had kidnapped me and brainwashed me against him.

It was also implied that a helicopter came and took me away in the middle of the night and I was institutionalized after posting comments about having cut up my baby.

This speaks to the being MISSING and then returning from an institutionalization that left me "brainwashed" against him.

This, to cover the real memories of why I had been institutionalized and it probably goes back to the "razor blade" incident.

It was said I was a threat to society and myself.

A court scene still lingers. As if this was attempted before.

I was DAMAGED GOODS, they said and would never make a good witness.

And, then there are the words, "building a case against the government."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-10-2007, 10:37 AM
I was made to feel sorry for him. Sorry because it was said he was a victim himself.

He was controlled, too.

He had an opportunity, I recall saying and instead he used it against me and chose to stay with the cult and, for this, I suffered.

He chose to pay the price for fortune and fame and let the broken heart stand.

He's going about his life as if nothing happened to me, I said.

I was told he had the evidence. The boxes were in safe-keeping. I was told that there would be a time we would be together, but not until I was better. Better!!!

I should WAIT!!! If I fall behind, he'll wait for me. If he falls behind, I'll wait for him.

On the site, it was implied that I risked my life to protect him!!!! I endured torture and wouldn't speak his name for fear they would hurt him.

I endured torture attempting not to be silenced from speaking his name.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-10-2007, 07:06 PM
As far as the razor blade incident, a man came into the house through the back door. He wore a stocking on his face.

The razor blades and money were under the bed. My sister was told to get them. She cut her fingers.

He said to hand them to me and for me to cut myself. Cut myself so that I would bleed to death.

I refused. My sister was forced to be an accessory.

When all was said and done, and I reported what happened, my sister denied the man and said that I did it to myself.

I was said to be delusional, psychotic, etc.

I always referred to it as being sent away and I believe there was more than one time.

The disinformation is just too unbelievable for me to repeat.

It would have been quite the discrediting factor.

The court scenes may be what occured before being released back into my parent's custody.

I do remember it being said that the records were sealed and only the judge could have them opened. Could be because I was a juvenile.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-10-2007, 07:44 PM
Sexual programming "triggers" for some mind control victims, especially if used in the music industry are contained in some songs.

Being on "fire" and/or HOT are two and there are songs that contain some verses/lines that speak to this such as the following:

"burning desire"
"I'm on fire"
"fire down below"
"can't start a fire"
"hot for you"

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-10-2007, 08:25 PM
There was disinformation about why he didn't talk to me in the past or why he wouldn't be able to talk to me in the future if we reconnected.

It was said that since we were witnesses together, there could be no collaboration. If it was going to go to court, we would have to remain apart until that time. We couldn't share information.

Since I was left in a state of mental distress, to help me recover my memory, it was suggested that I listen to music, his especially, and this would help jog my memory because there would be clues and messages contained within.

He would be able to drop hints, but, of course, as we know, listening to music, and dropping hints on his site, was used to call up the false information that had been planted long ago.

This, to keep me hanging on to the fairy-tale as if I he was waitin' on a sunny day or something.

When it was said that he wasn't a part of the cult, my response was, "how could that be, when most everyone you associate with is a part of it?"

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-11-2007, 01:09 PM
It was said they would kill him if I exposed my past and his involvement in it.

Not because they wanted to keep us apart so that we could not be witnesses against the government.

This, to silence me about THEM and HIM.

Did I want to be responsible for his death? Did I want to have HIS blood on my hands?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-11-2007, 06:39 PM
To him/THEM, I was an IGNORANT SLUT, a pathological liar and delusional.

I was a story-teller; however, this title fits him well.

HE was just like my father. I told him this often. You act just like my father. You treat me just like my father.

Almost as if he and my father were one in the same, but they were not. This is what they would like me to believe.

Like they shared my programming. My codes, my keys and my triggers.

I remember being very young standing out front with him and my father and there was talk about cars with lights on during the daytime.

Oddly enough, when I awoke, this occured. Yes, I know there are daylights on cars now, but this was in numbers.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-11-2007, 06:50 PM
As for the razor blade incident, whether there was a man with a stocking on his face I will probably never know.

Although I do not believe I inflicted the wound myself, I was to take the blame.

This, so that the person who was responsible, would not receive punishment.

My father said it was important to keep the family together.

He was talking to someone and he said, "why should we doubt what our daughter says?" She was here. She didn't see a man with a stocking on his face. Why would she lie?

Because she was either an accesory and forced to commit the act or did it herself.

The man with the stocking on his face could be disinformation so that I would believe she was an accessory. So that I would believe she didn't do it to me.

She cut her fingers on the razor blades trying to stop me from inflicting harm on myself, they said.

This matter was a closed book. In the past. Never to be spoken about again.

It wouldn't be the first time I attempted suicide they said.

And, of course, I was delusional. I made things up for attention. I lived in my own little world. I would make a good fiction writer someday.

Blah, blah, blah!

I would telephone home and tell my father that these so-called doctors were not REALLY doctors. They were not helping me. Just do as your told. Cooperate with them and you'll be home soon.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

redrat11
01-12-2007, 01:12 PM
Blue Bayou...

Sorry to interrupt your thread BA, I just wanted to add something to this Music mind control stuff, A Dr. Horowitz person discovered that certain types of musical sounds cause human DNA to "TUNE UP" like receptor signals, it is said these "TUNED UP" DNA are very beneficial for the SOUL. Hence, this is why the Book of PSALMS in the BIBLE is full of songs of praise to GOD, HYMMS.

http://www.barb-coolwaters.com/c001/bluebayou.html

I'm searching for a song I think sung by Fleetwood Mac, it has these words in it I think.

theres a place down in Mexico

got me hypnotized

I've been searching for the band of those lyrics for a year now, do you know who it is?



THE PANIC ROOM

http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/panicroom/

this thread is somewhat like the movie.(Jodie Foster)
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01-12-2007, 01:38 PM
I can hear the verse, "got me hypnotized," but right now can't hear anymore of the song. Are you sure it's Fleetwood Mac?

Are you saying the Mexico line is also in this same song?

There are many songs that have the word hypnotized in them. For instance, Elton John's "Butterflies are Free to Fly."

The Rondstat song depicts another lonely, sad, heart-broken soul.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

P.S. My AUNT apparently had some connection with Tex Ritter. This is all I know other than a few lines to a song that my mother said she and Tex Ritter wrote.

01-12-2007, 01:56 PM
I try to steer clear of Fleetwood Mac songs. They are particularly "lethal" as far as my "state of consciousness."

I think it was written somewhere that one of the band members was referred to as a WITCH.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

redrat11
01-12-2007, 04:24 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
I try to steer clear of Fleetwood Mac songs. They are particularly "lethal" as far as my "state of consciousness."

I think it was written somewhere that one of the band members was referred to as a WITCH.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Yeah, I'm no Music fan or a follower of any Band or Artist. Most of the music today is utter garbage. But sometimes your FORCED to hear the music.

01-12-2007, 06:10 PM
I hope you don't PANIC when you enter this thread.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

redrat11
01-12-2007, 06:20 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
I hope you don't PANIC when you enter this thread.

In Peace,
BlueAngel


Why would I PANIC? I mentioned the movie Panic Room cause theres parallels in your thread and that movie. (nothing more,nothing less.)

01-12-2007, 08:24 PM
Maybe I should watch the movie for the parallels.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-14-2007, 01:01 PM
Back in the day, incarcerated and among them, sexual programming triggered, I was informed by the OTHERS that to these people, sex equals love and love equals sex.

I knew this, as well.

They were/HE was insatiable. Like I was suppose to prove it all night. Stay up all night having sex.

Sex, sex and more sex. That's all he ever wanted.

When HE would tell me that he loved me, I was aghast. How can you love me? This isn't love. The way you treat me isn't love. You don't know what love is.

Paul Simon has a song with a verse that goes something like this:

"doesn't feel like love, feels like a threat."

That's what it felt like on the site. Love me, or else we will keep you here, control you, emotionally, psychologically and mentally abuse you.

"GIVE ALL OF YOUR LOVE TO ME," within the lyrics of a song, were posted frequently.

This, because, remember, we have the evidence about your past government abuse. NOT!

Remember, we are the witnesses, we are the OTHERS. Not!

I would be the one who has the evidence of your past abuse of me.

I was instructed that I should, whenever possible, refrain from attaining pleasure when engaging with them/HIM in any sexual activity. I should make an effort not to have an orgasm, otherwise, I might fall into their belief that sex is love and love is sex.

Because I would not allow them/HIM to take control of my sexual programming completely and, because I would not enjoy or have an orgasm when possible, I would then be taken to a heightened state of sexual arousal, tied up, while HE/they watched me suffer.

This also is a way for them to train their BETA sex slaves into "spontaneous orgasms."

If I was going to get them/HIM sexually aroused, which, of course, was of their own doing, and I told them so, but blamed on me, and not finish the job, they would do the same to me.

This, to teach me a lesson.

On the site, it was stated that I was to receive a taste of my own medicine. This, due to the fact that I refused to stop being intimate with my husband and I refused their total control of me. As usual, the blame is placed on the victim. As if I was sexually triggering him. As if I was demanding that he stop having sexual relations with his wife. As if I was controlling, manipulating and handling him. As if I was emotionally, psychologically and mentally abusing him. As if I was implanting false memories and calling them up. As if I was changing his state of consicousness. As if I was blackmailing him.

With sexual programming intact and through the exchange of erotic emails, I was brought to a heightened state of arousal and then communication ended.

There was much sexual talk on the site and users who were posting BETA triggers, as well.

I found myself emailing him with my sexual programming in full force and receiving no communication in exchange. I was kept in this state for a long time. Can't remember how long.

This to teach me a lesson. I hadn't behaved. I hadn't given all of my love to him. I hadn't stopped having sexual relations with my husband.

It was abuse and a form of torture, manipulation, control.

It was recognized as such.

I never turned the other way from him as suggested on the site when disinformation was called up because I was "sent away" and brainwashed against him.

It wasn't because MARY was programmed this way.

It was because I knew he was one of them.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

P.S. I have been faithfully married for 24 years.

01-14-2007, 09:29 PM
I was thinking back today about being on HIS site, and how shortly after my appearance there, I knew something wasn't right.

My state of consciousness had been altered. I knew something was wrong.

I began experiencing the fear/flight warning. I expressed this on the site and soon thereafter, HIS sister and a regular poster who is her friend were embracing me on a thread.

Comforting me. Suggesting that perhaps my husband should take the children away for the weekend. Playing therapist.

This, because they knew what I was experiencing and why. This, because they didn't want me to depart. They had not completed their operation.

I stayed, but left soon enough after that.

At one point, when I posted a comment or two after I had been gone for a while, HE started a thread about Project Monarch with a link, of course. Nothing personal written.

This, I suppose, in desperation to convince me there still may be some "innocent" connection and to get me "sucked back in again."

I didn't buy it then and don't buy it now.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-16-2007, 01:21 PM
TAKEN FROM 'ARE WE ON THE GOOD SIDE THREAD'

BlueAngel wrote:

Gee, I wonder why SHADOW would be trying so desperately to convince ME that I have no credibility.

We know the answer.

It's because I do!

Does HE/the famous musician who was my past handler/controller know you're here?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2007/1/16 13:06


Shadow wrote:

Quote:

Does HE/the famous musician who was my past handler/controller know you're here?


I couldn't have said it better myself.

Posted on: 2007/1/16 13:07

BlueAngel wrote:

So, then he knows you're doing some of the dirty work for him.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2007/1/16 13:11

Shadow wrote:

Quote:
Does HE/the famous musician who was my past handler/controller know you're here?


I couldn't have said it better myself.

BlueAngel wrote:

Thank you for confirming this.

As I said, the art of extraction. A very fine one indeed.

By the way, since we know you are a NWO thug, that would make him? Everything I've written, plus some.

Does he also tell you what to say to me?

There you have it!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

P. S. Once while on his site, in an altered state of consciousness, he said, "Wendy, go take your meds." When I asked, why are you calling me Wendy? I was booted.

Another time, I was teased with, "you're LIBRIUM are waiting."

This, after I had been put through the wringer so to speak. My mental state was ripped apart and HE knew it.

You know, if you can't go out on the streets as these musicians can't to get their fix, their handlers supply them. This is a control mechanism. WE KNOW THIS!

Do what we say or you won't get your fix.

Posted on: 2007/1/16 14:18

redrat11
01-16-2007, 02:32 PM
BlueAngel wrote:
Many musicians have roots to the "satanic cult." Many do not write their own lyrics. Many songs/lyrics have "hidden messages" directed at mind control victims. Many musicians, in a subtle way, refer to the "cult" of which they are a part; however, this interpretation would not be as evident to those who were not exposed to the "cult."

Many times, talented and creative children are sought after by the group who wish to exploit their gifts and as a result, you become their prisoner. Fortune and fame is difficult to snub your nose at if you are someone who has had very little. If you are someone who was abused at home, their abuse seems normal. Many times, these children have already mastered the technique of "fragmenting." Many times, their parents have connections to the Mafia, Freemasonry, etc.

One need look no further than Michael Jackson to see how exploited and abused he has been within the music industry and how acceptance of pedophilia by someone famous is normal. Although he is probably guilty, he was not sentenced; and those who have abused him not sentenced either.

The story of Peter Pan is a "mind control" theme. One never grows up. Pedophilia's like children. So no matter how old one becomes within the cult, a child-like alter can always be called out to satisfy their handler/controller's sexual deviant behavior and the sexual deviant behavior of all others whom they are made to have contact with whether it be for blackmail purposes in Congress or not; whether it be diplomatic blackmail in other regions of the world.

It is not a coincidence that Michael Jackson's ranch was called "NeverLand." It is not a coincidence that "less fortunate" children were welcome there. These are their prey. Those without resources to fight them.



In Peace,
BlueAngel



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01-16-2007, 02:55 PM
Just to be clear, but I'm certain readers can make their own conclusion from this thread that Michael Jackson WAS NOT my handler/controller.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-16-2007, 02:56 PM
TAKEN FROM 'ARE WE ON THE GOOD SIDE THREAD'

BlueAngel wrote:

Gee, I wonder why SHADOW would be trying so desperately to convince ME that I have no credibility.

We know the answer.

It's because I do!

Does HE/the famous musician who was my past handler/controller know you're here?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2007/1/16 13:06


Shadow wrote:

Quote:

Does HE/the famous musician who was my past handler/controller know you're here?


I couldn't have said it better myself.

Posted on: 2007/1/16 13:07

BlueAngel wrote:

So, then he knows you're doing some of the dirty work for him.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2007/1/16 13:11

Shadow wrote:

Quote:
Does HE/the famous musician who was my past handler/controller know you're here?


I couldn't have said it better myself.

BlueAngel wrote:

Thank you for confirming this.

As I said, the art of extraction. A very fine one indeed.

By the way, since we know you are a NWO thug, that would make him? Everything I've written, plus some.

Does he also tell you what to say to me?

There you have it!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

P. S. Once while on his site, in an altered state of consciousness, he said, "Wendy, go take your meds." When I asked, why are you calling me Wendy? I was booted.

Another time, I was teased with, "you're LIBRIUM are waiting."

This, after I had been put through the wringer so to speak. My mental state was ripped apart and HE knew it.

You know, if you can't go out on the streets as these musicians can't to get their fix, their handlers supply them. This is a control mechanism. WE KNOW THIS!

Do what we say or you won't get your fix.

Posted on: 2007/1/16 14:18

01-16-2007, 04:44 PM
Funny, isn't it? Never subscribed to Rolling Stone magazine, but it is delivered to my home, in my name, every week.

Gee, I wonder what those white snow flakes are about. Kind of reminds of a scene from the Wizard of Oz.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-16-2007, 09:30 PM
As I was being watched, there was a point on the site where it was indicated that HE had left something in the mailbox for me.

As I went to the mailbox thinking this was going to be PROOF, evidence that I had found those who knew me, there was nothing.

I logged onto the site and a poster there made a comment that was so unsympathetic I am taken aback when I reflect on the "emotional abuse" I endured while under their control and in altered states of consiciousness.

Here remark was something like, well, maybe you'll find your Prince Charming one day.

And, being watched. My every move.

One day I went out and as soon as I entered my house and logged on without even posting, a poster commented that I was back.

Then there was the time that HE was going to be in my area and a poster started a thread (HIM) asking if I had read the information about where he was going to be on Friday.

I indicated yes and all implications where that he would be contacting me.

Of course, I was filled with anxiety, and when he didn't show, I was yelling at him via email, what was I suppose to do just stand outside my house waiting. No phone call??? No nothing.

He logged onto the site with yet again another username; another so-called brilliant disguise, and said, I WAS WRONG!

The abuse continued for sometime after the apology and then I was gone!

Hindsight is 20/20, but when one is under mind control, unless they break free there is no hindsight to be seen.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-17-2007, 08:11 AM
Is it any wonder that subconsciously, I always had this thought in the "back of my head," that there would be something IMPORTANT in the mail.

Not realizing the "implantation" meant that it would be from him.

Check your mailbox everyday. You never know when he might contact you.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-17-2007, 11:06 AM
Answer to Spectre's question re: Pink Floyd's Publius Engima:

BlueAngel wrote:

Right here:

Excerpt from link:

In April 2005, Pink Floyd drummer Nick Mason stated that the Publius Enigma did exist, and that it had been instigated by the record company, rather than the band:

"That was a ploy done by EMI. They had a man working for them who adored puzzles. ... He was working for EMI and suggested that a puzzle be created that could be followed on the Web. The prize was never given out. To this day it remains unsolved." [5]

In Peace,
BlueAngel


People are intriqued with mystery. So, the more mysterious a person is, an event is, the more attention it draws. But, it also opens the mind to suggestibility. This is based in part on the mystery religions from Babylon times.

This is what the musician who was my past handler/controller personifies to his fans.

He is a good storyteller and his fans, who have followed his career, want to hear more. Hoping for more insight as to the mystery characters, stories, he has created in his songs.

Captivating his audience with mystery. What is he singing about? Who is he talking about? Tell us more. Tell us more. Almost as if they are children trapped in HIS fairy-tale world.

Do you suppose that these people who followed this Pink Floyd ENIGMA actually thought it was being created by something other than "mind controllers?"

Most probably, because what do they know about mind control.

In a sense, they were victims themselves.

Didn't they do the same thing with the Beatles?

Paul is dead!!

Who do you think thought this one up?

And, for what purpose?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-17-2007, 02:53 PM
From Wikipedia:

Concerts
Teleprompters are sometimes used in concerts, to assist performers who have trouble remembering the words to songs. The teleprompter may be of the kind used in speeches, or may just be a monitor set into the stage floor. Notable singers who have regularly used teleprompters during concerts include Frank Sinatra, Bruce Springsteen, Axl Rose of Guns N' Roses, Elton John,Ozzy Osbourne, and Bernard Sumner of New Order.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

I'm not implying this is "mind control" related, just something I didn't know about.

01-17-2007, 08:03 PM
Well, now, Spectre, as I've stated before, the art of extraction, a very fine one indeed.

I know what the "dots" represent, but thank you for allowing all others on the board the opportunity to learn what significance the dots have insofar as that famous musician is concerned.

You have provided a very nice example in your last comment.

I will explain it for the rest of the readers.

Where I have asked another poster on the board "what is his name" (referring to the musician who was my handler/controller), the next comment on the thread was made by Spectre and they were the infamous dots.

This means, the name of the musician should not be spoken. Omit. Leave out. Just as the definition for dots is explained when used within text...ommission.

These dots were used very often on HIS site while I was being held there against my own free will.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

In your original reply on the Freemasonry thread, you really only needed the following quotes, however.

It went like this:

BlueAngel said to Shadow:

What is his name?

Spectre said:
...

01-17-2007, 08:28 PM
This also lends a clue as far as Shadow is concerned.

It's clear what his/her purpose is, but nonethless.

As I was asking Shadow repeatedly the name of the musician, Spectre came in with the dots.

So, we may be able to make an assumption that, as I have suspected, and, I'm sure the rest of you as well, he/she is being controlled. Yes, as in "mind controlled."

Had the dots not been posted, Shadow may have answered my question.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-17-2007, 09:54 PM
Conversations to come.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-18-2007, 05:50 AM
Again, the dots in which you refer were placed there by me because I accidentally replied twice, leaving two identical comments back to back. I edited the second with the three dots as the delete function is not available to we mere mortals.

There is however a deeper personal significance with regard to the three dots but my use of them here is purely habitual.

01-18-2007, 07:52 AM
The dots are for the purpose I explicity outlined in the example you provided for us.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-18-2007, 12:18 PM
So, back to a particular THREAD on HIS site, wherein I described that one of the posters ejaculated in my face, and said, there Wendy, how do you like being in a government safehouse.

Most of the posters stayed out of this particular thread. However, there was talk about me between those who were there most of the time. Negative, degrading and the type intended to push buttons. You know, whispering behind my back type of stuff.

There was never any back-up of any kind from anyone else on the site as to the immoral behavior that was taking place in my name and on this thread.

I was intentionally PUT ON THE DEFENSIVE and emotionally abused so that I would be distracted. This, while I was in an altered state of consciousness.

This is not contrary to what happened on this site when I made my first appearance here.

It is a tactic. It is a ploy. It is a mechanism designed to attempt to keep me from accessing what I am accessing now.

Now, the abuser/protector role comes in. The regular posters in this thread were seemingly not in good graces with the others posters who rarely entered this thread. However, I'm sure they were a part of the operation, as well.

I made a comment something like, I'm going to SIC so and so on you.

And, sure enough, one of the most degrading posters on the site, whom everyone seems to align themselves with, came in and gave them all a beat down.

This action, of course, to make me feel safe and secure to remain on the site and to portray the role of rescuer.

Quite disgusting, I might add.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

When I mentioned that I was uncomfortable with the sexual exchange via email; that I felt like I was cheating on my husband, a thread was started asking for opinions as to whether or not people thought sexual exchange over the internet could be considered an affair.

I remember saying in an email that I only behaved in this manner with you.

It was completely out of character for me and I knew it. I was back under the control of my past controller/handler and other manipulaters on HIS site.

01-18-2007, 12:37 PM
It was also stated on the site that the musician whom I speak about said he would post there, but that he, of course, would not use his real name.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-18-2007, 03:36 PM
There was a regular poster on board while the "operation' was underway who has known this musician of whom I speak for decades.

He was one of the first to post a verse from one of the musician's songs to indicate that they knew me.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-18-2007, 03:48 PM
In the beginning, there was a poster who used the name Tim Rose. He only posted lyrics.

This, I'm sure was the start of what I have referred to as being programmed to songs/lyrics.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-18-2007, 09:41 PM
Something that really raised a flag while I was on the site was the fact that when the poster who ejaculated on my face in that certain thread would comment on other topics, he would very often say the following:

Something to this effect:

"I'd love to lick Charleze Theron's a** with my tongue."

Now, this guy posted a thread about how he had to go out of town and was afraid of flying. The posters, one by one, answered him in a very comforting way.

I was saying to myself, you've got to be kidding.

On the otherhand, if you disagreed with their politics or said anything negative about the musician, you were "ganged up on," but "perverted" behavior was acceptable.

Sometimes, one of the posters would become quite enraged and the exchanges would become violent in nature. Killing with a bat, etc.

However, these two posters were highly adored and respected.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-18-2007, 10:30 PM
I am of the opinion, and I thoroughly and wholeheartedly believe that the "operation" ultimately was to either drive me into an institution, ruin my marriage so I would be alone and completely removed from reality, isolated and even more under their control, or cause me to repeat disinformation and appear crazy for discrediting purposes.

If that didn't work, to ultimately take my own life due to the emotional, psychological, mental abuse I suffered while under their control. Unable to function on a day to day basis, practically starving myself to death, depression, and the constant chatter they triggered which is enough to neutralize and contain a person. But, also distressing enough that one finds themselves desperate for a way out. Wanting the "voices" to cease and desist. They were complete and total interference.

Finding that one may want to go to a medical facility or take your own life. Perhaps overdose or begin drinking profusely so as to numb one's self from the disturbing state of mind.

The results they desired were basically the same as in the past. They deployed tactics on me in order to affect one of the outcomes as described.

This next comment probably belongs on the Project Monarch thread, but, I'll put it here.

Mind control victims are programmed to suicide and or kill their children/huband when memories begin to surface. The same applies if one seeks therapy.

Now, imagine if you visit a therapist and tell them this.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-19-2007, 09:16 AM
Oh, yes, the picture thread on HIS site.

I wonder what that was about???

Many of the posters, other than those who never revealed their names, placed pictures of themselves on this thread.

I was asked, "are you cute?" Cute as a button, I said. Send a picture.

Time passed and I didn't. Of course, I was reluctant, but as I was asked over and over again because he wanted to know that it was me, I obliged.

I'm sure they thought that having a picture of me would somehow guarantee my silence.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-19-2007, 11:26 AM
This is an example of some of the SPAM email I've been receiving for quite sometime.

Please read what appears after the advertisement.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

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01-19-2007, 03:23 PM
I told HIM, you can't control me anymore. I've told OTHERS about you and THEM.

They want to go public with it. They have information, too.

This was the beginning of a very devious plot against me.

Did I want to ruin his career? Did I want to send him to jail?

I said, you could be a witness against the government and quite possibly be granted immunity.

This could be a way out for you.

However, I'm out. I want nothing to do with you or the music industry or the cult.

I was convinced by HIM that he wanted out too, but that he didn't feel the time was right.

I didn't feel this way, because I trusted the OTHERS.

He felt people would think I/We were crazy. They are the crazy ones, not me. This was my MOTTO! This is the only way I stayed sane.

Why do you trust them, he asked. Because they don't abuse me. Because they've helped me. Because they have information about the "satanic cult," too.

I said, if you're not a witness, your name will come up otherwise.

Don't you love me? No, you abuse and control me. You're just like one of them, but you could possibly change if you get out. It might not be too late for you.

It's difficult not to feel pity at this point, but one must detach themselves emotionally from the reprecussions that an abuser might face when confronted with this reality. Although many of them are victims, as well, where will responsibility for actions begin if not with them?

If I changed, would you love me? I don't know. I'm just telling you that you have a way out and it doesn't mean that we have to be together or that we have to love each other.

It's your decision. But, your name will come up either way.

He wanted me to wait until he felt the time was right so we could be witnesses together, so he could get out of the cult, too. I said, when will that be?

You're just going to go back to the cult and I'm suppose to live with what I know until you are ready to be a witness? Just wait for you. I want this over and done with. You're going to tour all over the world and you expect me to sit and wait until you say the time is right!?! Until you snap your fingers and I jump like a puppet on a string?

You expect me to put my life on hold?

Well, through manipulation, because remember he was my controller/handler, he convinced me that there was a place I could go where people could help me to put this horrible stuff in a separate compartment in my brain until it was time.

I felt I couldn't live with this knowledge. It interfered with my state of mind as you could well imagine.

He would be waiting for me when I came home and maybe then it would be time. Then why go, I said. You are not safe right now, he said.

Why am I not safe? Did you tell people inside the cult? No, but they have a way of finding out. Then, why aren't you in jeopardy? You know I've told OTHERS. Because I have inside connections, but I never wanted to tell you this.

Oh, so you abuse me and act like one of them because this is your cover? You have to do this so you're not found out!?! So, when we're alone and you're abusing me, it's because??? Well, I'm not perfect. I grew up the same way you did. Yes, but I try to tell you what is right and what is wrong and you clearly do not understand.

After much manipulation, off I went to a "witness protection program."

Of course, not to protect me, but in the end to protect him and the cult from what I knew about THEM.

What will they do, I asked? He wasn't sure, but they would use hypnosis, etc. I said, they do that now when they want me to forget where I've been and what they've done to me. You use hypnosis on me. See, he said, and it doesn't hurt.

He supposedly had connections, too. Like he was working with the "good guys," as well. This, the reason he knew of a "witness protection program."

He didn't want to tell me this before, but it just happened to emerge during this conversation.

He uses this BOGUS CIA connection sometimes publicly.

I was tortured and they left me in a catatonic, near brain dead state.

Damaged goods. Not a good witness.

When I returned home, I didn't remember where I had been. When I saw HIM, I knew he was responsible. I knew he did this to protect himself and the cult.

He wouldn't tell me where I was taken; although he knew.

This, he said, because it would be considered tampering with a witness, and he still wanted me to believe we were going to be witnesses one day against the government.

However, I knew that the outcome they achieved was the outcome they and he wanted.

So, through manipulation, listen to the radio, to my songs, to other artist's songs whom you know and there will be clues/messages and when you remember what you "need to know" to bring this public, then we'll be together and the time will be right.

Since much of the past was sketchy now, just how he/they wanted it, he could only attempt to jog my memory and not give me any details. This, through messages/clues in songs.

Well, because of you, I may never remember. Because of you it might take 30 years. Because of you, I was tortured.

Just go about your life, I said. One day, I'll see you in ???

And, this he did!

Still somewhat under his control, I obeyed, but after some time and contact with the OTHERS, I knew this was causing disinformation, frustration and an attempt to trigger me and keep me from remembering.

I was trancing in and out of reality and my state of mind was being altered because, like I've said, I was programmed to music/songs/lyrics.

He had been tricked, he said. He never would have advised this if he had known what they were going to do this to me.

Sure thing!

I'm yelling, "look, look at my scars." Look at me. Look at the marks from electricshock.

Get out and don't ever come back.

And, so, 40 years later!

No attempt to contact, no attempt to provide the evidence I was convinced HE had when I returned from the "witness protection program."

No evidence to prove that it was him with whom I had shared information in the past with about the "satanic cult" and he who had contact with insiders.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-19-2007, 03:40 PM
I was advised not to tell the OTHERS. Not to tell anyone that I was going away. Just consider it a little vacation.

Just have my bag packed and ready and I would get the call.

I'm sure my parents knew, of course.

No one else had to know anything, they said.

It would be better this way. Safer this way.

Afterall, it was a "witness protection program."

So, under the cover of darkness is when I went. Scooped up in the middle of the night.

Neighbors, whomever inquired, they'd have something to tell them.

And, when I returned home, I wonder how they explained the state I was in.

Most probably didn't matter. Seemed the neighborhood people all had problems and many were a part of it as well.

Except for a neighbor whom I believe truly looked out for me, much to my parent's dismay.

I miss her dearly. I do remember her saying she wasn't like this when she left.

They detested her questions.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-19-2007, 05:02 PM
I remember thinking he was going to either be there with me for a while or stay, but I'm being tortured and I'm screaming HIS name, not because I was looking for him for protection, as they wanted me to believe on HIS site while I lay in my bed reliving torture and calling his name, but because I couldn't believe HE would allow this to happen to me.

He had to leave, they said. Why are you doing this to me? He said this is not what was going to happen.

When I return home, I see HIM and tell HIM to get away from me, I don't know you. Not because I didn't know him, but because I wanted nothing to do with him. You're dead to me.

I am practically being interrogated, tell me, tell US or me, what they did. Think hard, think hard. Like it's all on me now. Well, how can you be a witness you can't remember anything. What? Are you a dum, dum? Did they take your brain.

I explain what I remember them doing, and I'm told I'm wrong, they never would have done this. I'm imagining it. I'm making it up.

Why? I said. Why would I make this up. This was always everybody's answer for everything. Delusional, etc.

Why should I tell you anything, you just tell me it didn't happen.

Now, it's like HE's mad at me. I ruined it all. How can we be witnesses when I can hardly remember HIM, where we met; hardly remember what happened to me in the cult.

I say, well, you remember. You know. He replies that I have to remember. He can't speak for me. Convenient, isn't it? HE can't be a witness for me. Now, the instructions to listen to the radio for clues again, etc.

Tom Petty's song REFUGEE has triggers to bring about implanted memories before I had this recall such as the words, "kidnapped, held for ransom." The kidnapping scenario was used on HIS site. One particular poster was constantly referring to my mind control victimization as having been kidnapped. Who kidnapped you and I remember thinking to myself, this is odd, why would he think I was kidnapped.

Did they do a lobatomy, they ask? jokingly. Like this is a joke.

Think hard, think hard. I'm frustrated. I don't remember and, at that point, of course, I could care less. Just get out and leave me alone. Don't ever come back.

You are a sick man.

I'm crying. You did this to me. You let them do this to me and now you're acting as if it is all my fault. Like I've let you down. This was your intention.

You tricked me. You made me do something I didn't want to do because you have some kind of control over me. As recently evidenced on HIS site when I was behaving in ways unbecomming to my natural character.

You never wanted to be a witness, you never had any intention of leaving the cult. You sold your soul to the devil for fortune and fame.

She can hardly remember her own name, they say.

I'm certain after this interrogation, they were quite pleased with the results.

Then he switches from his sadistic personality to his empathetic one.

On his knees crying. If I ever find out who did this to you, I will sue the bastards.

I'm saying, you know who did this. Get off me. You don't give a damn. You were there and then you left. They were referred to me, he says. I didn't know them personally. Oh, and you can't find out with all your so-called inside connections.

You are such a liar! Just like them. You are as guilty as the rest of them.

You are just so sick. Get out. Stop trying to make me remember anything. You just make it worse. You ridicule me. You degrade me. You treat me like I'm not even a person. Not even human. You have no respect for me or yourself.

You are the reason this happened to me and I will never forget it. NEVER!

Ah, he says, but will you ever remember the details?

Yes, I say. When it's too late, he says. When this will not matter anymore. When the Beast has taken over the world. It will be too late before you remember.

And, you're a part of it. This is what you want for the world?

You are the "devil" in disguise, I tell him. You are everything they are and worse.

I thought you had a heart. I thought you had a soul, but I see they've taken those from you.

Sometimes a glimpse, but never long enough to make a difference.

See, see how sick you are. There aren't any words to describe you.

Except, STILL THE SAME!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-19-2007, 05:52 PM
I think he truly believed that it was better to be a part of the cult than not.

So that when the time came, somehow, he would be protected because he was one of them.

Although, I found a way out, he still couldn't believe it possible for himself. Impossible to fight them is what he said.

So, he made it impossible for me, too at that point in my life with the creation of amnesia and implantation of false memories at the so-called "witness protection program."

Of course, he was fearful of his fate, as well with the information I had passed on.

Or, maybe he couldn't imagine his life without me. I don't know.

I think that he also thought it was better that the memories of him and the cult were erased and false memories implanted, because he actually thought we would be together again someday and that I would go back to him/them as if nothing had ever happened.

Holding onto some dreamworld that he lives in. That he wanted me to live in.

Didn't matter that I told him I never wanted anything to do with him or the cult. I can't be with you, you're a part of the cult. He just didn't get it.

Like I wouldn't be controlled again. Like I wouldn't be abused again. Like I wouldn't be a sex slave again. At that point, I probably didn't remember much of this.

The fact that he was a pathological liar and I did not trust him, that he was responsible for the torture I endured and knew what would happen to me, didn't seem to register with him. That he was my controller/handler whom treated me like a dog and slave, didn't matter either.

Like it was all just normal.

I remember him saying that I would have all the money I could ever want. I would never want for anything and I said I would want for a life of my own. For me to be in control of my own life and that is not what you and the cult are about. Do you think I want to give up my life for money?

Are you trying to buy my silence? You cannot. One day I will write about this and I was told to write about it after he was dead. Or, that I would be killed before the book hit the stand. I said I don't want to profit from any of this. I just want JUSTICE. I want it to stop.

I think he also believed that somehow erasing my memory, implanting false memories, creating amnesia (oh, yes, amnesia is great), was protecting me from harm. Without the knowledge of the government abuse and because I said it was difficult to live in the world knowing what I know without trying to do something about it, I think he thought the creation of amnesia was a good thing. Like it helped me. Kept me safe because I wasn't able to talk about it with anyone.

When I tried with the OTHERS, I became paranoid because of the fear they instill. You know, if I tell you, I'll have to kill you or myself.

I actually think I was "put to sleep" and placed in an altered state of consciousness, false reality until I woke up about five years ago.

I was already protected to a certain degree from the information I had passed on to OTHERS and he wasn't getting this.

I was out of the cult and it wasn't because of him.

I said, I could never be with you. I remember how you were to a certain degree and people like you don't change. You are a product of your environment. You are just like THEM. You're still acting the same way. Nice one minute, angry the next.

What about therapy, he asked. What if I go to therapy?

You will still be a part of the cult!!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-19-2007, 11:05 PM
It didn't matter how many times I told him I didn't want to be with him, he just didn't get it.

I can see now looking back how this is common with someone who is abusive.

They are completely unaware to a certain degree that their actions are inappropriate.

He told me not to have sex with anyone or we'd never be together. This, while I was supposedly waiting for the right time to go forward.

I said, "I'm not spending my life waiting for you."

I was constantly telling him that I would be with whomever I wanted, have sex with whomever I wanted and do whatever I wanted.

I don't want to be with you, ever, I would say over and over again.

I was tortured because of you. You weren't there, but you knew and you think that because you love me that means I'm suppose to love you.

Don't you get it? I was tortured. That's not love. You don't know what love is. You think love is sex. You don't love me. You just don't want me to talk to anyone about you. You just want me to be your sex slave. You just don't want anyone else to have access to me. You just want to own me. I'm not a slave. I'm a person.

Go find someone else to love, but first learn what love is. Go seek help, I said.

On the site he wanted me to believe I was tortured so that I wouldn't give these people his name.

That I risked my life for HIM!!!!

How could he even think I cared about him? He was and has always been in love with himself.

I suppose fame has caused this to a certain degree. Adulation from his fans as well.

It was like he could do no wrong. Half the time I don't even think he remembered what he did to me. He was a different person so much of the time.

He said if we ever reconnected that I would have to stop having sex with my husband because I couldn't love two men at the same time.

I said I don't love you. He just didn't get it.

Once on the site, I was asked, "do you remember where we were?" I said, yes. He said, "is it still there?" I said, yes.

I remember it being said that the my home would always be there. Everything would be left untouched. But, this plays into one of his songs, so it may be disinformation.

Sell it, I don't want it, I said. I'm never going back there. Ever.

There was a remark made one day on the site by him to imply that I was his wife. Like we had been married by a gypsy in the past. This, again, plays into one of his songs so it could be disinformation. Even if we were married by a gypsy, like this would be real!!!

Nothing in the cult is real!

One minute abusive and then the next it was like he didn't do anything. I was suppose to just carry on like on the site when those words were constantly typed, "Carry On." Like, oh, alright, yeah, that abuse you're dishing out, I'll just forget about it and carry on. Let's joke and laugh it up.

I don't want to be with someone who abuses me. This, I said over and over again.

I'll give you anything you want. I'll buy you anything you want.

I don't think he knows the meaning of abuse. Not in that world. It's normal.

I went to a Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young concert recently. Crosby dedicated a song to a girl he said who use to watch them play, but her father locked her in her room.

This "locking in the room" by her father is referenced in one of HIS songs as well.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 02:36 PM
I have explained earlier about "the voices," and "the voices," and now I have to elaborate on this further.

For me, there were "the voices" of my past programmers that were triggered when I awoke and are responsible for causing a "spin" effect of disinformation, a brain overload, a shut down. Chatter! Basically, a way to block access to real memories. In essence, as it is referred to by those with knowledge of mind control, screen memories.

I was implanted with an overload of disinformation that causd frustration in trying to ascertain the truth from fiction/lies.

These voices have quieted. They have been silenced.

It is a type of schizophrenia, but man-made by "mind controllers" and Nazi doctors inside the "satanic cult" at the time of my incarceration.

There are also voices that are housed within other alters who carry commands such as suicide, self-mutiliation, etc.

Sometimes these voices would talk back to one another. Or, comment on my core. Needless to say, it is very taxing on one's mental state of mind. And, again, plays into the silence, neutralize and contain.

But, we must remember, it is not something that I was born with. It was man-made.

I do not refer to the "instructions" that I was armed with as "the voices." This is a part of my core personality. A piece of myself that kept me alive in the past and the present when I would receive "suicide commands" and other destructive orders from alters, past programmers and/or secret, silent, invisible weapons.

These "instructions" are housed in a compartment with the "knowledge" and truth that I learned from my incarceration in MKULTRA/Project Monarch. These instructions, knowledge and truth did not come about on their own. I was inquisitive. I asked questions, I learned how to extract information. If they were going to abuse me, if I wanted a way out, then I was going to have to learn how to retrieve information. I was not going to sit back and take it. I was not going to be a prisoner in their world for the rest of my life.

I referred to the OTHERS as my advisors, as well. To this end, I was also trained to a certain degree by them. They were the only SANE people in my life. I knew what I was experiencing was wrong at a very young age and I fought against it as best I could, but seriously, if not for them, I may still be a victim today.

Most all of which HE and they accused me of suffering from is likely what he suffers from as well and most probably before these symptoms presented in me.

He couldn't remember what he did to me from one day to the next. From one minute to the next. I would ask, how can you not remember? You just did such and such to me a minute ago. Or, yesterday, etc.

I just don't, he would reply. Or, the voices made him do it. Or, he would deny it. I would say, what voices? Just voices in my head. Tell me when you hear them so I can tell you, shake you out of it, snap you out of it before you do something you will regret later. Before you hurt me again.

The disinformation was that the instructions came from HIM. This was re-inforced on HIS site. This is negative.

The disinformation was that my mother and father were responsible for all of my abuse. This is negative.

The disinformation is that he saved me from the cult, when the fact is that I may have been able to provide him with a way out, but he chose to stay and have me tortured instead.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 02:59 PM
Because you see, at that point, although I was not a complete and total mind control slave, HE was still able to handle me.

In HIS eyes, I'm sure, in THEIR eyes, I had betrayed them, I commited treason, I commited perfidy, I was to suffer.

This, the twisted world in which they live.

Just part of the "satanic cult."

No if's, and's or but's about it.

Not trusting, but trusting through manipulation and deception to a degree that is, most times, inconceivable to the population at large.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 03:05 PM
Bono has a song with the following verse:

"and you give yourself away, and you give yourself away, and you give, and you give, and you give yourself away."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 03:27 PM
After being manipulated, placed in altered states of consciousness, sexual programming triggered, convinced HE was my protector, suggestible state of mind enhanced, exchanging emails and my husband is referred to as a loser.

I was "instructed" and knew that this would be a ploy. Attempting to have me speak poorly of my husband as if this would be something they could hold over me.

When I lied about him, the lie was many time repeated on the FORUM as a comment by another.

And, this, through another email, "think of me as your diary." This suggestion was ignored.

And, this, after being abused, very upset and angry as though it was nothing, through an email "Oh, don't hold a grudge report." What should I do with it? Pass it down the chain of command.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 04:12 PM
Yes, artists are talented. When you're a songwriter, this ability can be enhanced through hypnosis and altered states of consciousness and if you are "mind controlled," your suggestibility is very high.

In this sense, a scenario can be depicted. You are then asked to pretend you are this or you or that.

You can then transfer your lyrical abilities into a song that does not even relate to who you are but of the character/person you have taken on in this state of mind.

It is a form of make-believe. You are told to make-believe this and make-believe that.

One artist in particular, uses dozens of female names in his songs, but never that of his wife. This is prevalent with many songwriters.

Many times they are "stuck in the past," or brought back into the past to relive events that left an impression/emotional turmoil. Being in the cult, there are plenty of these to chose from.

This is a tool that the mind controllers use.

Remember how you felt when this happened, when that happened. Tell us about it. Now write about it.

As I've stated, sex slaves are in abundance and the emotional abuse that they endure and those whom they are handled by or "farmed out to" can be called up through the aforementioned tactics. The end result are so-called love songs, but most of their love songs are of a hurt and pain. A hurt and pain that is truly man-made within the cult for this very reason. A hurt and pain that is deeper than anything one might experience in reality.

These techniques are used to get and keep the creative juices flowing.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 07:11 PM
How 'bout when I went through months of psychological "torture" on the site and then I was told THEY would pray for me.

Or, when I was making a fuss about my Kerry confession and he went on the campaign trail with him, I was told, "it was necessary."

Certainly, if I had "reported" to YOU in the past, campaigning and rubbing noses with a politician whom I was sexually used to blackmail as a child would mean you are "in bed" with THEM.

Wonder why it was necessary?

Was this part of an operation to protect Kerry?

When their attempts to totally control me had failed, communication "cut off" with him, another poster intervenes in an effort to make me feel BAD for something I had not done to HIM. How could I have no sympathy, empathy for someone who abused me past and present?

Ah, because I don't particulary care to be "jerked" around.

Again, an example of the twisted world that they live in.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 07:25 PM
Further, the aircraft and helicopters that have been a presence over my house for five years are not for my benefit.

Therefore, when I was feeling "suicidal" while on the site after being jerked around like a puppet on a string and this was known, because I expressed it to an insider via email, and, as I've stated, I'm tapped to the gills, a helicopter flew over.

Minutes later on the SITE, of course not directly to me, a Thread was created and a comment to another poster about wearing a white robe in the daytime was made.

It was me wearing the white robe in the daytime.

This, after he loved me, left me, loved me, left me, protected me, abused me, protected me, abused me, jerked me around, used me.

Again, causing the creative juices to flow and me spewing lyrics all over the place.

Of course, I was suppose to be thrilled that HE made me laugh and all was to be well, just peaches and cream.

They are of the opinion that laughing makes the abuse okay.

Makin' funny, as they would say.

The twisted world in which they live.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 07:28 PM
A funny thing happened to me on the way to the farm!!

I asked, "why do you call it the farm."

Because WE are trained like animals to obey every command.

Don't bite the hand that feeds you!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-20-2007, 10:11 PM
Strange, isn't it? I never paid attention to this artist since we parted long, long ago, of course, for very good reasons. Two major reasons would be self-preservation and sanity.

Didn't see him in concert. Didn't buy his CD's except maybe one or two of his most famous.

Rarely, listened to them.

As I've stated, they turned music against me, well, used it to their advantage and so I stopped listening as much as I would have liked to.

Anyway, saw him in 1999 and "the voices" began. My sister asked me if I was hearing "the voices" again. Haven't spoken to her since.

Odd, isn't it? She knows about the voices, but drops from the face of the earth.

The voices disappeared, but psychologically I was going through some changes.

Saw him again in 2001 in an HBO special.

As I've written, shortly after 911, this is when memories began to surface but not before I endured great depression and suicide commands.

Mind control victims who are no longer incarcerated are programmed to suicide upon the sight or sound of their handler's voice.

There was disinformation that "he went into hiding" or was laying low so as not to cause my destruction because, blah, blah, blah, they had programmed me this way to keep us apart because we were witnesses against the government.

By the time I hit his site in March, 2004, I had overcome alot; however, from past experience they knew I would never KILL MYSELF so from heretofore I will refer to the operation they deployed as "operation destruction." That was their only resort.

If this failed, they would attempt to have me CLEAR his name with the disinformation they called up and my coerced verification of same.

I will refer to this tactic as "Operation Failure."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

It wasn't HIM who had to go into hiding or lay low, it was me who had to HIDE from him and lay low.

Again, the twisted world in which they live.

As far as the so-called "witness protection program." Afterward, it was said that changes had to be made for my own safety. I knew too much.

Knew too much about him and THEM.

01-21-2007, 12:10 PM
Personal Message from nomfasfu to BlueAngel:

hello

Dear BlueAngel,

Hello...I came across this site searching for information about MKNAOMI I believe...there wasn't much of anything useful but I clicked a link and found this forum and eventually your "MIND CONTROL AND THE MUSIC INDUSTRY" thread.

How can someone read it and not believe you? SHEEPLE don't care about others. The suffering you (and other victims of mind control etc) have gone through...most, including myself, couldn't comprehend it, but I dont think thats a reason to IGNORE it. The only other option that I can see is prayer... (may you heal)

oh...also...being born in the late eighties I'd never heard of/listened to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_J._Geils_Band ... but it kind of scares me to think of how many bands/musicians I listen to with a similar story... (please tell me, the beatles aren't REALLY evil? :( haha...)

love,

:)

Posted on: 2007/1/21 0:07


BlueAngel wrote:

I place no importance on who believes and who doesn't.

As the topic has been read by 400+, not counting those who were not logged in and reading it, this is an indication that it is NOT being ignored.

I don't need an option.

I am healed.

Prayer is a personal thing between God and myself.

I know him. I don't know you.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2007/1/21 0:17


Let's see. In this PM, the word IGNORE is capitalized. This is for whom? We don't even have to assume. WE know.

This is the reason he states that prayer is the only other option.

He is "subliminally" suggesting that I IGNORE the topic, "mind control and the music industry."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2007/1/21 0:49


Nomfasfu wrote:

Dear BlueAngel,

I'm sorry. I suppose my message came across in a bad way. I didn't mean it like you took it...I'm not very good at communicating what I mean.

Your thread was a very long one...yet there weren't many replies other than george bushs/shadows etc....so it appeared to me that it was being ignored...other than being read, I suppose. It isn't exactly unusual for people to be apathetic and ignorant in this country.

As I said I came across the site/thread accidently, so no, you don't know me and I don't know you, it's the internet. :P

love,

:)

Posted on: 2007/1/21 0:55

BlueAngel wrote:

People don't reply on a topic of which they have no knowledge. They read and learn and become knowledgable.

If you don't understand the presence of Shadow, George_Bush and the likes on the thread, let me explain. They are intruders. It should be obvious.

I am not concerned with receiving apathy, understanding, etc. from anyone in the country.

My suggestion to you.

It's the internet.

Don't end your salutation with love.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Posted on: 2007/1/21 1:01

Quote:
Nonfasfu wrote:

"oh...also...being born in the late eighties I'd never heard of/listened to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_J._Geils_Band ... but it kind of scares me to think of how many bands/musicians I listen to with a similar story... (please tell me, the beatles aren't REALLY evil? :( haha...)"

BlueAngel wrote:

What bands do you listen to with a similar story? What similar story is it to which you refer?

The J. Giels Band is not the musician or the band of whom I speak.

Your personal message is utter nonsense.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-21-2007, 03:06 PM
The following verse rings true for me:

"I know what I know and I'll sing what I said;
it's in the back of my head."

I cannot condemn the entire music industry, because I am of the belief that there were one if not more inside, but not a part of the cult, to whom I may have passed off information and in return they passed it along.

This is what they wanted me to believe was the role of the musician who was my past handler/controller. This is negative.

There are two other very famous musicians whom my past handler/controller is good friends with and they have always been in the back of my head as far as me constantly telling HIM, "why do you leave me with your friends" when I tell you what they do to me?"

I can't stand your friends. Isn't it enough that you abuse me. Do I have to be abused by everyone else you know, too?

It was standard practice in the industry. The sharing of slaves. To appease me, HE would ask them, they denied, HE knew, but I was called the liar.

I was hard to control. So, many times he had to call in reinforcements. Just the same on HIS site. He wasn't capable alone. This, to my benefit and his detriment.

There is information emerging as if I was prostituted on the street by HIM. Not sure where this plays in, it could be disinformation in one of his songs to cover up the sex slave industry.

Or the fact that I feel certain my mother may have prostituted me to neighborhood men. I remember her saying that her father did the same to her. They were very poor. Poor excuse, however. No excuse. Cannot excuse. Only GOD can forgive.

Joan Baez' song, "You can Play me Backwards," is very revealing. Please read the lyrics.

One verse speaks of how she is now paying for protection. This song was written long ago.

Recently at one of HIS shows, she was in the audience. I suppose this was to instill the thought that HE is the one protecting her. This would be NEGATIVE!

I referred to one of the other musicians who is his friend as Mr. Personality.

On another note, while on the site, and similar to what was attempted here last night on clubconspiracy, while I was practically starving to death, I was also 'sleep' deprived. The child-like alters in THEM would come out, triggered in me, and I would find myself being sucked in until all hours of the night.

Naturally, this causes altered states of consciousness and a lack of poor judgement and thinking capability.

Once, via email, I asked, "do you want to control me?"

The reply was "do you want me to?"

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-21-2007, 04:22 PM
At one time while on HIS site, before I had been sucked down the "rabbit hole," to an almost "point of no return," I had decided I was tired of this BS.net site and left.

I received an email from the administrators at the DYLAN forum saying that my posts had become disruptive and asked if I needed a break.

So, I'm thinking, disruptive! What? HE's suppose to have saved me from the cult and I'm reporting information to HIM and it's disruptive.

OKAY! I think it was more like they were disrupting me.

The DYLAN site!! Had never even been there, although there were was an attempt by one poster to direct me there.

Since I had already removed myself, this was a stab at "reverse psychology."

I think my reply was something like, I'm already taking a break. So other measures were taken to lure me back.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-21-2007, 04:56 PM
More often than not, when your handlers/controllers are calling out child-like alters to satisfy their sexual deviant behavior, (i.e., pedophilia), they'll ask, "who wants to come out and play today?" Or, who do I want to play with today?

Does Wendy want to come out today?

The scene might be something like this:

The handler will say, "you'll be the baby" and I'll be your Daddy.

I use to ask about this. I'd say, isn't that wrong? I mean, Daddy's aren't suppose to have sex with their children.

I was told that HE wasn't really my Daddy. Of course, I knew this. It was just make-believe, he'd say. But, why make-believe, I would ask. Because some men like to have sex with little children. Isn't that wrong? Not within the cult, I was told.

I was very young to begin with, but the younger the better for them.

Or, I have to pretend to be your Daddy because somebody has to PROTECT you, take care of you. Your own father doesn't.

There are musician's with lyrics in their songs such as; Daddy's coming and/or come to papa!

There's a song, I've never quite understood with lyrics as follows:

"you don't have to call me lieutenant, Rosie, and I don't want to be your son."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-22-2007, 09:11 AM
What was he thinking?

01-22-2007, 11:42 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
This is an example of some of the SPAM email I've been receiving for quite sometime.

Please read what appears after the advertisement.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

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Youre talking about a composer and an arranger. They could be one

I wonder why this email is no longer in my mailbox. I didn't delete it. Could be THEY didn't want the FROM email address on record as I deleted it in this post.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-22-2007, 02:16 PM
Shadow wrote:
What was he thinking?

Don't know. Don't care. Could speculate, but won't.

Who is he?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-22-2007, 08:08 PM
Quote:

cuda wrote:
More like criticizing the smallest thing and forgetting the large part is your forte'. Also all you do is rant about who cares and arguing with your self as 2 for sure and I think one more personalities on this blog. Not to mention anyone that puts up a title. Do you even read them or are you just suppose to criticize all? I also think that you steal your illuminate brain washing stories from others stories. Am I the only one who has suspected this?

BlueAngel wrote:

Why is it that you believe you can tell me I am forgetting something?

In what area do you believe my forte' lies?

The music industry?

How would you know?

It is not my forte'. Hasn't been for decades and never will be again.

THIS IS MY FORTE' and I am capable of making that decision using my own free will, my own mind and not via suggestion by another entity.

That was my choice then and it is my choice now.

I beg to differ on the "criticizing the smallest thing."

If that is how you see it, your perception is skewed big time!

Your opinion as to my mind control victimization of the PAST is of no importance to me.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-22-2007, 08:28 PM
Landed on HIS site in March, 2004. Around June, 2004 or perhaps July, decided to take a trip out of town. Truly trying to get away. Felt I was getting sucked in. Changes being made. I was in an altered state of consciousness at this point.

Parasailing with my daughter. Black chopper hovering behind us. That happens all the time right?

Get back on the boat. The driver turns on the radio and HIS most infamous song is on.

It's all in the timing, I tell you! People will do almost anything for money. And, money is no object for these "mind controllers."

That's why people who feel they are being targeted with secret, silent, invisible weapons and suspect that co-workers, etc. are government agents, well, they may be, but read the paragraph above again!

I asked the driver to turn the radio off. He asks, why? Does it remind you of an old boyfriend?

Go for breakfast the next day. Another of his songs is on the radio.

Go for lunch. Another of his songs is on the radio.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-22-2007, 08:34 PM
The poster who lurked the most in that particular thread on HIS site that was a so-called government safe-house. Well, there was a comment made one day by a regular poster, who has known this musician for deacades, about this person's behavior.

It was something like, that's what it's like when you're trapped inside with multiple personalities screaming to get out.

It was obvious!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-22-2007, 10:39 PM
In order to come to conclusions regarding any situation that requires review, one must ask questions of themselves.

It's called deductive reasoning using critical thinking.

In my case, it has to be used. It is not your typical situation.

THEY are not what they appear to be.

I'm just inquiring of myself. Going over the events.

You have seen me use this type of questioning with other posters on the site who have, ultimately, given US insight into their objectives and/or motives.

Regarding the previous comment posted by me, let's assume that the remark the poster on HIS site made about another poster having MPD was from this poster's truth/knowledge of this person. It sounded like it was.

Let's also assume that the poster to whom he referred was the musician who was my past handler/controller. I believe that it was.

They watch him suffer! They watched me suffer! I think the word would be "sadistic." It's all a part of THEIR sick world. Vicious cycle of watching each other suffer.

Reminds me of a "Stones" song. Wild horses, with this verse:

I watched you suffer a dull aching pain
Now you've decided to show me the same

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Seems I had a stage name. Wendy, most probably, but could have been Fantasia, Anastasia or Diana.

Reference to this was once made on this site by Leviathan. He asked if I was still stripping. Perhaps thinking this would embarrass me and force me to leave the site. Maybe these are the pictures they are alluding to as releasing if I went public. Don't know.

This was also carried out in the so-called government safe house on HIS site. "Wendy, get up on the pole," etc. Of course, I did not act out these scenes. I thought the charade was ridiculous.

I told Leviathan at the time that his reference was of no importance. If I was a stripper at some point, it certainly wasn't of my own choosing.

It may just be a screen memory.

It was said, "Wendy is your stage name."

If I was being forced/trained to strip in clubs, I would have to think that I was way underage.

Could have been for private parties, etc.

01-23-2007, 02:12 PM
As far as what transpired while on HIS site, I'm certain there were other intelligent entities present, which would exclude HIM and his ilk.

I was reading between the lines in order to recover memories of my past abuse and I was writing about it there.

It was not HIM and his ilk to whom I was reporting in the past or on HIS site.

I was somewhat struggling between "operative" and mind controlled slave again. Intelligence and handlers were both present.

I received a bulk email from an insider who was asking for specific information about Michael Aquino.

Had this person been connected with THEM/HIM, this would not have been necessary. He could have asked me directly on the site.

There is "reading between the lines" and then there is "reading between the lines in songs."

The first one I have used on this site with those who attempt to speak to me somewhat in CODE. They "drop hints" and are elusive in what they are truly trying to convey because it is meant for me and not for the readers of this site to understand. If they said what they meant, their exposure would be obvious to anyone.

This is why I ask questions in response to statements they make that are elusive and have hidden meanings. Meanings that apply only to me.

I have supplied a "perfect example" in Cuda's statement to me that I criticize the small but the larger part is my forte'.

The "reading between the lines" in songs is not a good thing. This is how I was programmed so that I would only be able to access disinformation.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-23-2007, 02:33 PM
It is HE who "tricked" me into going away to an island and a so-called witness protection program.

HE knew exactly what was going to happen to me.

Do you know what a "deep sleeper is?" That is what I was.

I was "put to sleep."

This does not occur merely through hypnosis. Torture and other tactics are involved. Drugs, as well.

Real memories were tortured out of me and disinformation implanted. Information that I had gone missing from him. Many of his songs speak to this. This is what was implied on HIS site. Somehow, I was taken away from him by the OTHERS.

Negative!

I never went missing. HE did. He left the island and I screamed his name as I was being tortured.

Not because I believe he had been tricked, but because I believed he "tricked" me.

So, when I talked to him after I came home, he insisted that he had no idea they were going to do what they did to me.

I said, now how do you expect me to be a witness when they've created amnesia?

This is what you wanted, I said. You never had any intention on going public. Never!

As I always told him, you're just like one of them. You're ONE OF THEM!

More disinformation was that I asked the OTHERS to put me to sleep because I couldn't live with what I knew. This is negative.

I NEVER ASKED TO BE PUT TO SLEEP!!

Would you?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-23-2007, 02:55 PM
BlueAngel wrote:

Shadow wrote:
What was he thinking?

Don't know. Don't care. Could speculate, but won't.

Who is he?

In Peace,
BlueAngelyou said you knew

01-23-2007, 03:34 PM
I've posted below the lyrics that speak to the "read between the lines in songs."

It's by Foreigner, "I want to know what love is."

Also, there are many songs that speak of cold. This reference use to catapult me back to being naked and cold on a steel table, being experimented on, shivering, shaking, etc.

There is reference to cold in the verse I've posted below by Foreigner. The song "Cold as Ice," is another (double meaning, if you read the rest of the lyrics) and one of Elton John's songs with the line, "in fact, it's cold as hell."



I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older
Aaaah woah-ah-aah

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
And through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-23-2007, 03:38 PM
Shadow wrote:

BlueAngel wrote:

Shadow wrote:
What was he thinking?

Don't know. Don't care. Could speculate, but won't.

Who is he?

In Peace,
BlueAngelyou said you knew

Are you dense? Shadow answers yes.

I asked YOU who the HE was that you were referring to when you asked, "what was he thinking" when he wrote the line:

"you don't have to call me lieutenant, Rosie and I don't want to be your son."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-23-2007, 04:22 PM
After I left his site, I went through a period not too long ago, where I was listening to the "olides" radio station religiously. This, of course, from subconscious instructions. Waiting, listening, maybe he'd say something, maybe there would be a clue.

Realizing it was causing an altered state of consciousness even further and "snapping" out of the trance like state of make-believe, fairy-tale, never never land, la la land, I thought to myself, this is completely ridiculous.

So, one day I'm listening, and lo and behold, I hear my voice. The soundbite had absolutely nothing to do with what the DJ was talking about at the time.

The female voice said:

"Why are you here?"

My privacy has been invaded much of my life through listening and watching, surveillance, gaslighting. I was a victim of MKULTRA/Project Monarch; used as a sex slave in the music industry; my handler/controller is a very famous musician.

In otherwords, to protect him, to protect the government from what I know to be the truth, I've been a target all of my life.

Makes perfect sense, right?

I shouldn't resent any of this, right?

I should just go about my life like nothing happened, right?

That's what HE did.

Wouldn't you?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-23-2007, 04:36 PM
I've been going back and forth thinking that I'm sure THEY/HE were in contact with me shortly after I was married.

If he couldn't have me than no one would.

I was never to receive pleasure from sexual intercourse with another man. Anyone other than him. These were my instructions.

In fact, in an email on the site, I said, "I did what you told me to do." This was My subconscious talking and this is exactly how it is referred to in the cult.

Of course, it was a lie.

Let's hear your subconscious talk. That's your subconscious talking. Repeating instructions, etc. It comes up from out of your subconscious, they would say. It's all in the subconscious mind. Penetrating the subconsious mind. That's what it's all about with hypnosis.

I told him to get out. I'm married now and I said, "why are you here?" Maybe they played this on the radio thinking it would have the opposite effect than what it is now. They were wrong. It doesn't make me believe they have tapes. They don't.

I received a vibrator and a subscription to Play Girl Magazine. I was told to pleasure myself. Never have an orgasm with another man.

Remember, they didn't want me to become intimate with another man. They didn't want me to trust anyone for then I might reveal my past. They wanted me alone, paranoid, crazy and/or institutionalized.

When the MPD poster on the site remarked about how I should scream louder during an orgasm, this was because HE was upset. This was also to humiliate and embarass me. This was also to let me know they were listening. Certainly, that would somewhat constrain me.

I believe shortly after I was married, a recording of my husband and I being intimate was revealed to me. This, in an attempt to keep me from having intimate relations with him.

The disinformation was that in the past when HE and I were being intimate, others were listening in.

This is negative.

We know they've been invading my privacy forever, because there isn't any other way they would have known that I was waking up and remembering.

Planes, helicopters, street games, emerged non-stop.

I know why the planes fly overhead, the helicopters as well. Same reason they did when I was younger.

I KNOW THIS, but if I were to ask my neighbors, hey, what do you think about all the aircraft activity around here, they'd be oblivious.

I KNOW THIS because this is what happened in the past. It is an attempt to distract me. It is an attempt to cause interference.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-24-2007, 09:34 AM
Back to the MAILBOX issue.

When it was indicated on his site that something from HIM would be in the mailbox and it wasn't this was to call up the disinformation that I should check my mailbox everyday because I never knew when he might contact me. They couldn't deliver something because the disinformation wouldn't allow it. It never happened.

As I stated this was a subconsicous implant. I always felt that I was waiting for something in the mail, but didn't know from whom or why.

When I was young and imprisoned in MKULTRA/Project Monarch, I spent nights writing all that I could remember. I felt anxious, most times, because I didn't want my parents to know and I didn't want to forget.

Many time, my parents would say that they found me slumped over my desk asleep or that I was up until the wee hours of the morning writing.

I had a back-up story and back-up writing to show them. It was a fiction story I was working on, I said. Poetry, etc.

When I first woke up, I inquired of an insider, "who has the boxes of documents?" This, again, came from my subconscious knowing that this diary of my life is out there in the hands of OTHERS.

I believe I left my writings in the mailbox at night and that they were picked up.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

At some point, my parents found out that I was actually reporting and I was under close watch.

01-24-2007, 07:05 PM
It's very difficult for most people to relate to being "mind controlled." It's difficult to explain how trapped one is and unaware that they are not acting of their own free will. To be totally controlled by another person is incomprehensible to most people.

It was incomprehensible to me that I had been a mind control victim when memories surfaced.

How in the world could this happen? How could I have had another life, in a sense, that I didn't remember?

How could this be? Well, it can be and so it was.

Fortunately, GOD gave me strength to fight against it from almost the moment it was perpetrated upon me.

I was not incarcerated directly most of my life, but to a certain degree, I was acting upon triggers within my environment, television, cinema, etc. The effects of their programming were still intact. The effects of their trauma and torture were still causing PTSD symptoms.

I was not "deprogrammed" when I left the "cult," but I feel at this point, I am an individual of my own free will.

"Deprogramming" is a long journey. I began the process of awakening 5-1/2 years ago. I cannot tell you nor could anyone understand the land mines inside of my mind. The hurdles, the barriers, the games, the distress. I wish for enlightenment purposes, a picture could have been taken of what I and others have endured on the road to recovery. For this may be the only way for others to understand how massive the abuse by our government is upon the citizens of not only America, but countries all over the globe.

You are all being used as experiments. As I've said, what they learned in these programs on individuals, they have applied on the massses for decades.

I say this not for pity or sympathy, but for the future of humankind. For an awakening to the corruption that exists of which you are unaware and which will encompass and swallow you one day if you do not HEED the warnings of those who speak.

Back in the day, I constantly said to HIM, "you are not the BOSS of me." Why are you always bossing me around? You act like I'm some kind of a slave and you're my master. You try to control what I say, how I act, what I think. Everything. It's like I'm you and not ME.
I'm what you want me to be. I want to be who I want to be. Not what you want me to be. Maybe I don't want to be in the music industry. Maybe I want to do something else with my life. Maybe I don't like the way you treat me. Did you ever think of that? Or, do you just love yourself too much to think that anyone could find fault with you?

You say certain words to me and I feel strange. I feel different. I see spots in front of my eyes, little darks spots, like I'm changing. I don't feel like myself. I don't like how I feel when I'm around you. I don't like how you make me feel and I don't like how you make me feel guilty when you're the guilty one. I just don't like it. I don't hurt you. You're the one who hurts me.

Why do you do this? You say certain words and then I feel sexy. Do you think I want to have sex that way? Do you think I want to be "programmed" to have sex. Why do you have to have sex all the time? Maybe I don't want to have sex as much as you do. Maybe sex isn't what life is all about. I don't think you know what love is. You think sex is love and love is sex. You don't like anything else about me. You just like me for sex.

Why are you so mean to me, I would ask him. One minute you're nice. The next minute you're mean. I never know who you are from one minute to the next. You change all the time. You're different all the time. I don't want to stay in the "cult" and be this way for the rest of my life. I don't want people controlling me. I despise it.

People who were not directly incarcerated in the "satanic cult" cannot imagine what it's like to be controlled by another person. You cannot imagine what it is like for someone to have power over you, your actions, your state of consciousness, your awareness. You can't imagine what it is like for someone to hold the keys to your BEING. For someone to be able to switch you from one alter to another. For someone to fiddle with your mindset. For someone to play with your emotions. To be trapped by another and have no way out. To be a puppet on a string. A marionette. A slave. A "mind controlled" robot.

You can't imagine what it's like to have lived in fear most of your life without understanding why. You can't imagine how I could not have memory of this until decades later. I have explained hypnosis. I have explained trauma and torture. I have explained the "power of the subconscious mind." I have explained the abuser/protector role.

For so many years, I was afraid. Subconsciously afraid that I would come in contact with him again. That I would lose my soul and "free will" again.

After doing so, I know now that there is nothing to fear but fear itself.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-24-2007, 09:40 PM
You came and you went
spent me like a penny
didn't realize I was heaven sent

and now

I'm walkin' on water
I'm walkin' on air
I'm walkin' the streets free
cause I really just don't care

there are people and places
things I want to see
you jailed me like a prisoner
and threw away the key

and now

I'm walkin' on water
I'm walkin on air
I'm walkin' the streets free
cause I really just don't care

I've got love all around me
and comfort in my heart
I've got a husband who leads me
doesn't rip me apart

I've got a shoulder to cry on
arms to wrap around me tight
I've got someone here for me
in the middle of the night

and, it's alright
it's alright
it's alright with me

cause

I'm walkin' holdin' my head high
your stranglehold's been broken
I'm no longer chokin'
on your miserable lies

I go to sleep at night
with my husband by my side
25 years and counting
he's my lullaby

cause I'm walkin' with my head high
no longer chokin' on your miserable lies

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-24-2007, 09:45 PM
I walked with our heavenly father
under Satan's spell
through the gate's of hell
and their evil world

I was just a little girl

as he sipped the blood from my veins
I cried in pain
and as I walked with our heavenly father
it was devine

he brought me out of the rain
and into the sunshine

he brought me out of the cold
and into the warmth of his embrace

he brought me out of the dark
and into the light

he has a name
he has a face

he is our GOD

he is the creator of my being
he is the almighty
he is the all seeing

he is my protector
and he is on my side

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-24-2007, 10:37 PM
I will, at some point, and when I have the time post some of the lyrics I wrote while on HIS site and in altered states of consciousness.

Many times, I was able to incorporate lines/verses from HIS songs into those that I wrote. These I will NOT post.

What those songs demonstrate is how songwriters/musicians/artists can be placed in altered states of consciousness, read other musician's lyrics and speak back to them in song, especially if you are of their world, been used as a sex slave with one or more of them, and been put through the emotional wringer.

I may have also done this in the past and given the lyrics/songs to him. It was said we were speaking to each other through song.

The same applies to men who are controllers/handlers and have sex slaves at their command as referenced above.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-24-2007, 11:07 PM
I want to THANK all of you for allowing me this safe place in which to heal. For your guidance and wisdom from the past. For your protection. For having scruples. For believing in me then and now.

One cannot express in words the reprecusions that a mind, body and soul experiences when they have been forced to suffer in silence an abuse that most cannot comprehend.

I came here once before after my infiltration had ended. I was shattered and broken.

I am whole.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

igwt
01-25-2007, 05:35 AM
How do they invade your privacy? Hidden microphones?

Shadow
01-25-2007, 07:04 AM
22 pages 218 replies and only 547 views

99% of the repliese and over 50% of the views being from BlueAngel, does that tell you something?


Unbelievable

igwt
01-25-2007, 07:42 AM
Shadow wrote:
22 pages 218 replies and only 547 views

99% of the repliese and over 50% of the views being from BlueAngel, does that tell you something?


Unbelievable

Still I'm interested to know, how they are doing it?

Shadow
01-25-2007, 07:53 AM
I wouldn't hold my breath waiting if I were you.

01-25-2007, 08:12 AM
First of all, as far as invading my privacy, I would think that hidden microphones were used in the past.

Current technology would include listening devices that can penetrate walls.

They have the capability to penetrate one's mind.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 08:13 AM
I think Shadow is under the impression that this THREAD has been placed in a competition.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Shadow
01-25-2007, 08:20 AM
Competition for what?

The most meaningless posts you can post in a thread? You win!

01-25-2007, 08:24 AM
Why does this thread bother you? Do you have some vested interest in this matter?

You don't have to read it. No one is forcing you. In fact, no one is forcing you to enter the thread.

The bigger question might be, "or, are they?"

You don't add anything to the forum except comments like, "so and so is Satan's poo."

Very enlightening and mature.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 08:25 AM
It's very difficult for most people to relate to being "mind controlled." It's difficult to explain how trapped one is and unaware that they are not acting of their own free will. To be totally controlled by another person is incomprehensible to most people.

It was incomprehensible to me that I had been a mind control victim when memories surfaced.

How in the world could this happen? How could I have had another life, in a sense, that I didn't remember?

How could this be? Well, it can be and so it was.

Fortunately, GOD gave me strength to fight against it from almost the moment it was perpetrated upon me.

I was not incarcerated directly most of my life, but to a certain degree, I was acting upon triggers within my environment, television, cinema, etc. The effects of their programming were still intact. The effects of their trauma and torture were still causing PTSD symptoms.

I was not "deprogrammed" when I left the "cult," but I feel at this point, I am an individual of my own free will.

"Deprogramming" is a long journey. I began the process of awakening 5-1/2 years ago. I cannot tell you nor could anyone understand the land mines inside of my mind. The hurdles, the barriers, the games, the distress. I wish for enlightenment purposes, a picture could have been taken of what I and others have endured on the road to recovery. For this may be the only way for others to understand how massive the abuse by our government is upon the citizens of not only America, but countries all over the globe.

You are all being used as experiments. As I've said, what they learned in these programs on individuals, they have applied on the massses for decades.

I say this not for pity or sympathy, but for the future of humankind. For an awakening to the corruption that exists of which you are unaware and which will encompass and swallow you one day if you do not HEED the warnings of those who speak.

Back in the day, I constantly said to HIM, "you are not the BOSS of me." Why are you always bossing me around? You act like I'm some kind of a slave and you're my master. You try to control what I say, how I act, what I think. Everything. It's like I'm you and not ME.
I'm what you want me to be. I want to be who I want to be. Not what you want me to be. Maybe I don't want to be in the music industry. Maybe I want to do something else with my life. Maybe I don't like the way you treat me. Did you ever think of that? Or, do you just love yourself too much to think that anyone could find fault with you?

You say certain words to me and I feel strange. I feel different. I see spots in front of my eyes, little darks spots, like I'm changing. I don't feel like myself. I don't like how I feel when I'm around you. I don't like how you make me feel and I don't like how you make me feel guilty when you're the guilty one. I just don't like it. I don't hurt you. You're the one who hurts me.

Why do you do this? You say certain words and then I feel sexy. Do you think I want to have sex that way? Do you think I want to be "programmed" to have sex. Why do you have to have sex all the time? Maybe I don't want to have sex as much as you do. Maybe sex isn't what life is all about. I don't think you know what love is. You think sex is love and love is sex. You don't like anything else about me. You just like me for sex.

Why are you so mean to me, I would ask him. One minute you're nice. The next minute you're mean. I never know who you are from one minute to the next. You change all the time. You're different all the time. I don't want to stay in the "cult" and be this way for the rest of my life. I don't want people controlling me. I despise it.

People who were not directly incarcerated in the "satanic cult" cannot imagine what it's like to be controlled by another person. You cannot imagine what it is like for someone to have power over you, your actions, your state of consciousness, your awareness. You can't imagine what it is like for someone to hold the keys to your BEING. For someone to be able to switch you from one alter to another. For someone to fiddle with your mindset. For someone to play with your emotions. To be trapped by another and have no way out. To be a puppet on a string. A marionette. A slave. A "mind controlled" robot.

You can't imagine what it's like to have lived in fear most of your life without understanding why. You can't imagine how I could not have memory of this until decades later. I have explained hypnosis. I have explained trauma and torture. I have explained the "power of the subconscious mind." I have explained the abuser/protector role.

For so many years, I was afraid. Subconsciously afraid that I would come in contact with him again. That I would lose my soul and "free will" again.

After doing so, I know now that there is nothing to fear but fear itself.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 08:52 AM
Shadow wrote:
"22 pages 218 replies and only 547 views

99% of the repliese and over 50% of the views being from BlueAngel, does that tell you something?

Unbelievable"



Unbelievable how off you are with basic math.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 08:54 AM
No one is "THE BOSS" of me, I would tell HIM. You are not "THE BOSS" of me. You will never be "THE BOSS" of me.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 09:35 AM
There is a song by Ringo Starr, but I can't find the lyrics.

It goes something like this:

You're sixteen, you're beautiful and your mine.

SIXTEEN? Really? Who is he singing about?

Something like:

You're my angel, you're my PET.

Really? A pet?

Okay.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 09:59 AM
How 'bout these lines from a song by Bruce Springsteen:

Hey little girl is your daddy home
Did he go and leave you all alone, un huh
I got a bad desire
Oh, Oh, Oh, I'm on fire

Tell me now baby is he good to you
Can he do to you the things that do, un huh
I can take you higher
Oh, Oh, Oh, I'm on fire

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 10:21 AM
"Someone Saved my Life Tonight"

Verse from the song:

And someone saved my life tonight sugar bear
You almost had your hooks in me didn't you dear
You nearly had me roped and tied
ALTAR-BOUND,HYPNOTIZED
Sweet freedom whispered in my ear
You're a butterfly
And butterflies are free to fly
Fly away, high away, bye bye

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 10:22 AM
Dylan has a song, can't find it, with a verse that goes something like the following:

"I didn't know you were from the FARM
didn't know you were so young."

In Peace,
BlueAngel

igwt
01-25-2007, 10:26 AM
Have heard the latest control method is micro-chip, so they can influence the brain.

01-25-2007, 11:23 AM
Right. Have heard that some people are volunteering for this and/or are they receiving one unwittingly during a medical procedure, dentistry?

In order to test them wouldn't they need to accomplish the aforementioned first?

Don't know whether or not they had these available back in the day and were experimenting with them on mind control victims, but when I first awoke I had this horrible memory that I had been implanted.

I talked to someone about it, whom I hope I can trust and he suggested that by now it would be defective if, in fact, this were true.

However, I'm still skeptical about any surgeries an/or dental procedures I've had.

I don't want to play into some disinformation they may have created to cause distress, so for the most part I have to dismiss it.

I have a very strange memory that has always been with me. It was before I was 17. I have a gland on the left side of my neck that becomes blocked and swells when I eat certain spicy and/or salty foods. My salivary gland.

Anyway, I was at a function with my mother and her friends and this gland was becomming an issue with me. It was ignored by my parents, but at this function, a friend of my mother's walks in with a bandage in the exact same spot as the gland in my neck.

It was said that she had the same problem as me and that she had to have surgery.

Naturally, I didn't want surgery, so I forgot about it.

Whether or not this was coincidence and she really had surgery or just something THEY did so that I would get over it, don't know.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

igwt
01-25-2007, 11:35 AM
Now that's scary!

01-25-2007, 01:37 PM
RedRat asked about this. Here are the lyrics to Hypnotized performed by Fleetwood Mac:

Written by Bob Welch.


It's the same kind of story
That seems to come down from long ago
Two friends having coffee together
When something flies by their window
It might be out on that lawn
Which is wide, at least half of a playing field
Because there's no explaining what your imagination
Can make you see and feel

Seems like a dream
(They) got me hypnotized

Now it's not a meaningless question
To ask if they've been and gone
I remember a talk about North
Carolina and a strange, strange pond
You see the sides were like glass
In the thick of a forest without a road
And if any man's hand ever made that land
Then I think it would've showed

Seems like a dream
(They) got me hypnotized

They say there's a place down in Mexico
Where a man can fly over mountains and hills
And he don't need an airplane or some kind of engine
And he never will
Now you know it's a meaningless question
To ask if those stories are right
'Cause what matters most is the feeling
You get when you're hypnotized

Seems like a dream
(They) got me hypnotized

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 01:39 PM
igwt wrote:
Now that's scary!

Which part?

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 01:56 PM
Here's a link from a "song" search I did using the word "devil." I'm sure it is not all inclusive.

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=Devil%20lyrics&kw=on

This link from searching for the word "hypnotized." Again, it's not all inclusive as Elton John's song, "someone saved my life tonight" is not here.

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=hypnotized%20lyrics&kw=on

This link from searching with the word "satan."

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=satan%20lyrics&kw=on

Search word "mirrors." Mirrors play a role in "mind control." The "mirrors" in your mind!

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=keywords:%28mirrors+lyrics%29&fm=off&gr=off&np=2

"Little Girl" search:

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=little%20girl%20lyrics&kw=on

"Mary" search:

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=Mary%20%20lyrics&kw=on

"Wendy" lyrics:

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=Wendy%20%20lyrics&kw=on

These links are from http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=Wendy%20%20lyrics&kw=on (www.sing365.com)

I searched the word under the song category.

Search for songs using the word "Dreams:" Remember, dreams and make-believe are part of their world.

http://seek.sing365.com:8080/cgi-bin/s.cgi?q=Dreams%20lyrics&kw=on

A verse from Madonna's song, "Dear Jessie:"

IF THE LAND OF MAKE BELIEVE
Is inside your heart it will never leave
There's a golden gate where the fairies all wait
And dancing moons, for you

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 02:17 PM
Good luck with the links. Sometimes they work and other times not.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 02:49 PM
I remember arguing with HIM about living in a dreamworld/world of make-believe.

I said, "I don't want to spend my life living in a dreamworld, living in a fairy-tale world.

Aruging about reality, I'd say that I want to live in reality. Reality, he'd say, you don't know what reality is.

You've got to be kidding me. You're the one who lives in a "hypnotic state." You're the one who doesn't know what reality is.

Look at your songs. Half the time your lyrics are about someone else. That's reality???

Read your songs. You want me to live in some dreamworld waiting for you. Waiting for something that is never going to happen unless I'm part of the cult and controlled. Something I don't want.

All you do is dream in your songs. Dream about this. Dream about that.

I wonder now, "is a dream a nightmare if it doesn't come true, or something worse?"

My answer would be worse.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 04:52 PM
When I first awoke, subconscious memory told me there were pictures of me and that the "powers that be" would release them if I did not remain silent.

I assumed these pictures were of me engaged in sexual activities and I wondered how could these be used against me when I was a minor at the time and forced to partake against my "own free will."

How could these be used against me when they would most probably involve pornography, pictures taken for girlie magazines, perhaps political figures?

This would be to their detriment and not mine. The photographer could be implicated, as well.

Back to the insider. Five years ago, I said to him, "release the pictures."

I now believe these pictures are not of the aforementioned, but of physical abuse perpetrated upon me by someone other than myself. Bruises, cuts, markings, etc.

I have always thought that my collar bone had been broken.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-25-2007, 09:54 PM
Strange. I've never seen the sound hmmmm written so much except on HIS site and by certain OTHER posters on this site.

It is a "sexual" programming trigger.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-26-2007, 02:23 AM
BlueAngel wrote:
Strange. I've never seen the sound hmmmm written so much except on HIS site and by certain OTHER posters on this site.

It is a "sexual" programming trigger.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Either you are trying to use reverse psychology for whatever reason or you are a true "victim" leaving yourself wide open to some serious manipulation.

I can't tell.

I will say that given the state that this website has been brought down to, your efforts may prove far more effective elsewhere. Nobody wanting to disclose ANYTHING would come HERE.

Nothing here but lying whackos babysitting children.

Shadow
01-26-2007, 04:13 AM
spectre wrote:

I can't tell.

I will say that given the state that this website has been brought down to, your efforts may prove far more effective elsewhere. Nobody wanting to disclose ANYTHING would come HERE.

Nothing here but lying whackos babysitting children.

And you have come to this conclusion now?

thE sADpart is that most of the whackos are aliases of the long time posters. thIS sItE is being destroyed from within.

Shadow
01-26-2007, 04:16 AM
This thread though must be some sort of a record.

22 pages of posts from a single poster, when read together are meaningless, but each individual messages shows the promis of a story.

The amount of time wasted by this idiot on this thread is incredible, just incredible.

01-26-2007, 05:08 PM
yO is De recorD tUrD.

01-26-2007, 06:05 PM
spectre wrote:

BlueAngel wrote:
Strange. I've never seen the sound hmmmm written so much except on HIS site and by certain OTHER posters on this site.

It is a "sexual" programming trigger.

In Peace,
BlueAngel

Either you are trying to use reverse psychology for whatever reason or you are a true "victim" leaving yourself wide open to some serious manipulation.

I can't tell.

I will say that given the state that this website has been brought down to, your efforts may prove far more effective elsewhere. Nobody wanting to disclose ANYTHING would come HERE.

Nothing here but lying whackos babysitting children.

Haven't seen you around here in a while Spectre.

Any reason, in partiuclar, why you have chosen to rear your head and comment on this particular post?

Please explain it to the audience. WE are all reading your every word.

FYI, reverse psychology involves two people.

IT HAS BEEN DISCLOSED and more disclosure is to follow.


In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-26-2007, 06:08 PM
Shadow wrote:
This thread though must be some sort of a record.

22 pages of posts from a single poster, when read together are meaningless, but each individual messages shows the promis of a story.

The amount of time wasted by this idiot on this thread is incredible, just incredible.

Anything YOU post in this thread or on this site will be RECORDED!

And, you care so much about the time I have spent on this thread, because???

You don't have better things to do than be concerned with what it is I'm doing???

Apparently NOT!

The rest of the story is still to come. I PROMISE YOU!

In Peace,
BlueAngel

01-26-2007, 06:11 PM
Shadow wrote:

spectre wrote:

I can't tell.

I will say that given the state that this website has been brought down to, your efforts may prove far more effective elsewhere. Nobody wanting to disclose ANYTHING would come HERE.

Nothing here but lying whackos babysitting children.

And you have come to this conclusion now?

thE sADpart is that most of the whackos are aliases of the long time posters. thIS sItE is being destroyed from within.

Look who is calling other people a whacko. What THEY make you do and how they make you behave is just incredible.

Search the archives for your posts, Shadow.

They speak for themselves.

In Peace,
BlueAngel