as for intimidating, I hate the title band across the top of this site. But, on to be helpful if I can. We all probably shared your current state at one time. That's why it is always useful to step back from everyday problems and seek more universal truths, that some say our creator is responsible for.
Because 'religion' is so potentially important to society it is also targetted for 'destroy from within' corruption. There are plenty of examples to point to, and many people are turned off religion. Having got on this topic, it seems to me that the places or people to turn to are an individual thing.
The world was probably always this screwed up, but now it's more obvious. Hope that helps.