Quite, but the experience seems to have made you stronger than most. In some ways this is a gift. Learn that when this game ends another begins. Knowledge puts you far ahead in the new game and the game is all there is.
I would agree that the experience has made me stronger than most. The emotional, psychological and mental abuse could have been debilitating had I not been armed with the "wisdom" from the past of my mentors.
I believe a new game is underway, but the knowledge I have disqualifies me from becomming a player.