What THEY wanted me to spread were the insane "tortured lies" of a fictious past with him, which included having a baby, so that, yes, I would sound INSANE!
Would he be there to back it up? NO!!!!
What THEY did not want me to remember and DO NOT want me to SPREAD is the truth as to his abusive role.
This, the reason I have been a target of their watchful eye, gaslighting and psychological operations for decades.