The scenario back then was that we couldn't be together because I had been brainwashed against me, but I should wait for him. One day it would happen.

I was left in a dream-like state, altered state of consciousness.

Many musicians writes about dreams. This is prevalant. It is commonplace to be tranced in a dream-like state.

Their themes are about hanging on to a dream, making a dream real.

Well, the dream HE wanted me to hold onto was never to materialize.

He would never talk to me, never make contact with me.

Is this what I wanted? Did I want to spend my life living in a dreamworld waiting for someone who was going about his life and would never connect with me because I had been deceived.

So, I went about my life as best I could as I was advised by the OTHERS.

And, here I am.

In Peace,
BlueAngel