Originally Posted by upagainstit
Your assessment is correct. I am not "one" in myself.
There is only - one - I. However - I am dubbed over.
More so - in past - than the present.
As far as I know, the reason for it, would be,
above and beyond us in being
wants to be there - instead of "ones self".
Wants to be in control - instead of - oneself.
Doesn't want to be - oneself - instead of our self, though.
From what I gather, you have an ENTITY within yourself who wants to be in control of your core.
I suggest you seek psychological help.
Club Conspiracy nor myself are equipped to help you in this regard.