You feel a personal obligation to stick up for the justice of that which people don't see, it's normal. But the paranoia is you unrealistic perception of it which I don't blame you for. I was followed by a grey van over this shit before- but it wasn't until time passed and I realized I was a mere speck that couldn't create a mass social impact on the understanding, that my paranoia was irrational. I say you just need to take a step back, and make conspiracy information 25% of your life, rather than 75%, because nothing is going to change any sooner, whether you learn it all now, or not. One love man, nothing's gonna happen, you'll be fine. I Proved a lot of things, and nothing has happened to me, the times have changed.