Re: seeking MKULTRA info
To make a long story short, I carried around a handful of memories all of my life that lead me to believe I had been sexually abused by family members. Due to the trauma of the abuse, these memories were stuck in my brain and had no beginning and no end. Just fragmented pieces of the gigantic jigsaw puzzle which I am still piecing together as I write.
For four plus decades, I was bothered by the fact that I could not remember my childhood and teenage years. I knew it wasn't due to the normal fading of memories over time. I knew I had amnesia, but I had no clue that it was induced by the perpetrators.
There was always a feeling inside that something was amiss, but I had no idea as to what I would begin to discover several years ago.
Shortly, after 911, I became very depressed and began receiving "suicide commands."
These commands frightened me immensely as there was NO REASON for me to want to kill myself.
I was fighting another ALTER inside who was trying with all of her force to make me suicide.
I survived and was "thrust" into what I can only describe as a nightmare. Reliving the past I so desperately wanted to remember.
How inconceivable it is for one to believe that they were a victim of a mind control program without knowing and for others to believe them as well.
Science-fiction would be the only way to describe my life and the life of all other victims of these programs. Because, certainly, science was involved and what we speak as to the atrocities inflicted upon us are "cast" away by many as fiction.
I sought professional help from my family doctor, a therapist and began to uncover the involvement of the CIA in my life when I was a child.
I discovered etchings on my body and a "butterfly" on my left hand. I noticed what appear to be razor marks on my right wrist.
So, one would have to say that I awoke to discover myself for the very first time.
What type of memories are you having that would lead you to believe you were a victim of MKULTRA?