I say it agin. You're a very good poet, BA.
Is it therapeutic for you?
Is it easier for you to deal with past memories this way, like people who stutter who can still sing perfectly?
Yes, Freeman, it is therapeutic and I do want to share, because the interpretation by others probably paints many different pictures of my past.
Like I said before, I was writing poetry at a very young age. In fact, I was the "thought for the day" STAR at my elementary school; however, I believe my writings began to reflect the abuse I was experiencing so I was forbidden to continue.
My creative talents, I guess, were stripped from me because I wasn't allowing them to be used for the purposes for which maybe they had in mind; instead I was writing about THEM.
I was not remembering to forget and putting it into poetry.
I stopped writing for decades and began writing again when my past surfaced after 911.
At first the poems were very dark without much mention of government involvement.
Enough to make my kids shudder. Me, too, when I look back.
They began to evolve into more specific recall over time.
Since I don't have all of my memories, they come out in poetry in bits and pieces. So, yes it it easier.
The really difficult memories sometimes send me to bed for a few days.
I believe many children who are products of this "cult" reference some of their knowledge in their lyrics, but I'm sure, like me, alot of the rest of it was erased through drug-induced amnesia and other methods.
Sorry, for rambling.