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Old 10-11-2005, 08:41 PM
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PREJUDICE

your prejudice lies deep
engrained, embedded
and bequeathed

quietly;
as it seeps

right out
of the hatred
beneath

all of your bigotry


I WEEP

I mourn the existence
of death
it suffocates my every
living breath

it creeps around me
so silently;

dare I weep

at the existence of death
through my every
living breath

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Old 10-11-2005, 09:26 PM
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I say it agin. You're a very good poet, BA.
Is it therapeutic for you?
Is it easier for you to deal with past memories this way, like people who stutter who can still sing perfectly?
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Old 10-12-2005, 09:13 AM
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I say it agin. You're a very good poet, BA.
Is it therapeutic for you?
Is it easier for you to deal with past memories this way, like people who stutter who can still sing perfectly?
Yes, Freeman, it is therapeutic and I do want to share, because the interpretation by others probably paints many different pictures of my past.

Like I said before, I was writing poetry at a very young age. In fact, I was the "thought for the day" STAR at my elementary school; however, I believe my writings began to reflect the abuse I was experiencing so I was forbidden to continue.

My creative talents, I guess, were stripped from me because I wasn't allowing them to be used for the purposes for which maybe they had in mind; instead I was writing about THEM.

I was not remembering to forget and putting it into poetry.

I stopped writing for decades and began writing again when my past surfaced after 911.

At first the poems were very dark without much mention of government involvement.

Enough to make my kids shudder. Me, too, when I look back.

They began to evolve into more specific recall over time.

Since I don't have all of my memories, they come out in poetry in bits and pieces. So, yes it it easier.

The really difficult memories sometimes send me to bed for a few days.

I believe many children who are products of this "cult" reference some of their knowledge in their lyrics, but I'm sure, like me, alot of the rest of it was erased through drug-induced amnesia and other methods.

Sorry, for rambling.

Cheers,
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Old 10-13-2005, 12:09 PM
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NOT IN YOUR WORLD


Not in your world
but
in mine

children abused
by those chosen few
powers they use
leaders accused
they feel amused

still there's no news

not in your world
but
in mine

underground bunkers
tunnels at daycares
who put them there
army corp of engineers

not in your world
but
in mine

turn your cheek
mainstream media
look away
cover distractions
so you can stay
in your powerful jobs
of fortune and fame

retain your name
the one they'll slander
when trying to expose
the attrocities I know

I'm a prisioner of their games
holding in the shame
telling me I was to blame
my alters know your names
my soul still houses pain

not in your world
but
in mine

Project Monarch was its' name
a butterfly still engrained
upon my hand
and on my chest
a Nazi symbol
is where it rests

click your heels
you must salute
the men who wear
black, shiny boots

Heil Hitler
are the words
the ones you say
they must be heard

cloaks and daggers
masks on their face
satanic rituals
at that Bohemian place

not in your world
but
in mine
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Old 10-15-2005, 12:36 AM
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I found this in my word program one day:

'tis Friday...

My friends, tilt your head up to the sky and breath in, real deep. It's a good life we lead...

VILE TEMPTRESS

Was it Sonoma?

My saddened soul can't be sure as it longs.

The room's chalky walls now echo silence.

Absent her intellect.

Begging her fire.

Pomona? Corona?

Somewhere she's singing her praises.

Railing at Springsteen, going down swinging.

Dumped on again just to

Rearm her muse.

Her child-like fervor and drama,

Her sleeve-borne angst and new poet's heart

Left a chill hole in our midst

When she ran off somewhere...

Sonoma, I think...

Yeah, Sonoma (I think.)
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Old 10-15-2005, 12:54 AM
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I am not sure, but I believe Socrates was the "Seeker of Truth." So am I. I always was and always will be. At times it is an asset of which I am most humbled to possess. Likewise, it can be a liability, especially to those whom I engage in my quest to uncover the truth.

I understand the reluctance of others to want to speak. An embarrassing past does not make for a very pleasant conversation. However, one must remember their past first before they can leave it behind. This was the dilemna I faced all of my life. An amnesic mind cannot forget what it does not remember.

One must know why they are hurting before they can wash away their sorrow. One must be able to identify their sadness before they can embrace happiness. One must understand their roots before they can pass on their legacy.

The process has not been an easy one, but I am not alone in my struggle to incorporate the childhood atrocities that were inflicted upon me into my being. I have support now. There are people who believe in me.

The madness that exists in our world and amongst some of our leaders was not easy for me to digest when I was a child and is even more difficult now that I have children of my own. My vision of our country/world is skewed. It is tainted by my knowledge, but knowledge equals power and in some way my knowledge will effect change. It has to. Otherwise, there is no reason for me to have it.

It is not easy to feel safe if your government is your enemy due to the knowledge you posses of their corrupt activities while being victimized in a CIA mind control program sexually, physically and emotionally. I was abused by men in our country who call themselves leaders and I suffered and prevailed in the name of freedom. I suffered and prevailed in the name of the "Constitution of the United States of America."

I did not suffer for naught!! I did not survive for naught! I will not let my sacrifice for our country be in vain.

Perserverance knows no boundaries. It is the true test of time.

At times, I feel blessed to have survived and at other times I am insanely angry at my mother and father's history and my govenrment's betrayal of me. The anger wanes when the absolute truth of God's guidance is upon me and his protection surrounds me just as he did when I was a child. AS a child, justice was all I wanted. As an adult, justice is still my ultimate goal.

Not just for me. But for all!
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Old 10-15-2005, 02:14 AM
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Stop whinning about your plight, BA. You think you've had it rough?

You have not the slightest clue what it took for this Christian to break into your 'inner circles'.

I don't give two rat turds about the Illuminati! I want them annihilated from the face of the Earth!

If you are free, then great. But I suggest that you become a Christian. Because if you are not on His side, you will be destroyed just as every other Illuminist.

Don't whine about your past to me! The Illuminati is going to be in the lowest circle of hell! And I mean to help them along in their journey just as quickly as possible!

Woe, woe, woe to them! For they have destroyed the earth!
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Old 10-15-2005, 11:01 AM
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Excuse me, Fra, Oh Mighty One, but I'm not whining to you!!!
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Old 10-15-2005, 11:10 AM
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Break into my "inner circle."

Yep, that's about what you have accomplished.

"Breaking and Entering."

An unwanted INTRUDER!!!
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Old 10-15-2005, 01:31 PM
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Stop whinning about your plight, BA. You think you've had it rough?

You have not the slightest clue what it took for this Christian to break into your 'inner circles'.

I don't give two rat turds about the Illuminati! I want them annihilated from the face of the Earth!

If you are free, then great. But I suggest that you become a Christian. Because if you are not on His side, you will be destroyed just as every other Illuminist.

Don't whine about your past to me! The Illuminati is going to be in the lowest circle of hell! And I mean to help them along in their journey just as quickly as possible!

Woe, woe, woe to them! For they have destroyed the earth!
Which denomination do you belong to?
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