I remember being told by my protectors that if I stayed with him; if I married him, he'd do the same thing to our children that he did to me.
He would never change. I knew this!
You know, while on HIS site, I started having "false" memories of my husband being one of THEM; of my husband as above. This is when I was almost under their "spell," believing HE was the HERO from my past, they were my connection, they were witnesses, they were the ones I passed information to about my victimization.
Disinformation that my husband was controlling me; standing between US.
How these memories were planted, I'm not sure or called up, I'm not sure. It could be because I was feeling so sucked into their "world," only trusting them, isolated, out of touch with reality that I began to distrust anyone and everyone except them.
These "false" memories were reinforced by one of the posters when he said, "I told you so, or we tried to warn you, to the lyrics to the song, "Pin a Rose on Me."
During emailing while I was on his site and it was my birthday, it was said that he had a present for me.
Just recently, a poster on the unofficial site said to another poster, I have your present.
In one of the threads about his and Patti's anniversary recently, there was a congratulations posted and then a "happy birthday" cake and a "thank you."
My birthday is soon to be.
Out of context? Of course.
It was an anniversary thread and not a birthday thread.
Thank you for what?
Again, attempting to insinuate that somehow I'm helping HIM.
Then there was a picture of an album cover of him with the name "Marianne" on it.
What is that about??
In the duet he did with Jesse Malin, one line in the song says the "little girl" was born in June.
I think one of the most distressing factors at present, is the blatant FLAUNTING of it publicly. Some of the explicit sexual lyrics and the fact that they have children.
Is it the risk?
Does it create a thrill? The thrill of "getting away with it."