I don't care about your life
and I certainly don't care about your wife
i don't care who you're with
I just don't care about you
not one little bit
i don't care if they lock you away
don't care if you never see a sunny day
don't care about what you do
just don't care about 'little boy blue'
the lies that you told
they're all over your face
you're hearts full of pain
your soul's a disgrace
I saw it broken
when I walked through the door
tiny slivers, tiny pieces all over the floor
it broke your heart cause i just wouldn't stay
wouldn't let you control me
thought you'd have it your way
that secret garden you thought you'd own
well, let me tell you
the seeds have been sown
they've grown into what you thought i wouldn't be
and if you look really hard
you won't recognize me
i'm not the person you thought you could shape
not the person you thought you could break
i'm not that "little girl" you once had
I'm a mother, a wife, a friend and a lover
i don't need to hide underneath my covers
i've got a real man who loves me forever
you and your cohorts just birds of the same feather
tryin' to weather the storm
cause you know it's been a long time comin'
and now it's here
a long time comin'
and the time is near
Without you, I would not have survived
Without you, I would not be alive
Without you, I would not have found my way
Without you, I would not have seen the light of day;
Without you, I would not have been able to break away;
Without you, I would not have learned to pray;
Without you, I would not have learned to say
Without you, I would have been lost in the dark
Without you, I would have not been a flame, but a spark;
Without you, I would not be where I am
Without you, I would not have been able to stand;
Without you, I would have lost my soul
Without you, I would have done what I was told;
Without you; I would have sold my life for gold;
Without you; I would not have grown old
Without you, I would not be able to speak
Without you, justice I could not seek;
Without you, I would be a shadow of myself
Without you, I would have been something else;
Without you, I would have crumbled and died
Without you, I would have believed all of HIS lies;
Without you, I would not have been able to fight;
Without you, they would have shut out the light;
Without you, I'd have no guiding force
With you, I was able to divorce
myself from the filth and all that they are
Without you, I would not have made it this far
I am praying right now that you are clapping your hands;
I am praying that we are all in GOD's land;
I am praying for salvation
I am praying for love
I am praying this BlueAngel will receive strength from above
I am praying, I'm praying with all of might
because GOD, as you know, he taught me to fight
I am praying for America
and I am praying for you
for all of your goodness
it will someday shine through
I have broken the chains
I have broken the ties
I have made it once more through all of the lies
I am a BlueAngel and what GOD has set forth
he knows that I'm ready to walk through the door
I am doing his work and when the pearly gates'
I know that he'll be there
and I have nothing to fear;
From all that I was
and all that I am
I thank you, Dear God
as I now take my stand!
You have helped me to free
myself from the chains;
I have finally been able
my life to reclaim
the past that was stolen
my soul no longer beholden
to all that is evil
and all that is sin
my life is redeemed
and it just now begins
My future is cast in front of my eyes
I'm ready and willing
and I wear no disguise
Thank you, my friends
for just as you said
you have been there
right up to the end
Sunscreens may improve, but shade kids
June 11, 2007 02:57:00 PM PST
Shade your kids. Strong new evidence suggests overall sun exposure in childhood, not just burns, is a big key to who later develops deadly skin cancer. The news comes as the government is finishing long-awaited rules to improve sunscreens.
The Food and Drug Administration wants sunscreens to be rated not just for how well they block the ultraviolet-B rays that cause sunburn today's SPF rankings but for how well they protect against deeper-penetrating ultraviolet-A rays that are linked to cancer and wrinkles.
The proposed rules are undergoing a final review and should be issued in weeks, FDA policy director Jeff Shuren told The Associated Press. Still, sunscreen bottles won't look different any time soon: The proposal will be followed by a public comment period before going into effect.
New research into how the sun and genetics interact points to a possibly more important step consumers can take now to shield their children, and themselves: Check the weather forecast for the day's "UV index" in your town, to learn when to stay indoors or in the shade.
Why? Where you live, not the every-so-often beach vacation, determines most of your UV exposure that lunchtime stroll, children's school recess or ball practice. UVA can even penetrate window glass. UV levels vary from state to state, even day to day, because of things like altitude, cloud cover and ozone.
"Sunscreen is imperfect," warns Dr. Nancy Thomas, a dermatologist at the University of North Carolina who led the UV research. "Schedule activities when UV irradiation is not quite so high."
Melanoma is the most lethal skin cancer. It will strike almost 60,000 Americans this year, and kill some 8,100. Cases have been on the rise for three decades, and while it usually strikes in the 40s or 50s, doctors are seeing ever-younger cases, occasionally even in children.
Scientists are studying the interaction of genes and UV exposure in melanoma patients in the U.S. and Australia and initial results suggest staying in the shade in early life is even more important than previously realized.
Thomas analyzed tumor genes from 214 melanoma patients now living in North Carolina. Colleagues at the National Center for Atmospheric Research in Boulder, Colo., used satellite data to track average UV radiation encompassing both UVA and UVB rays in the different towns and states where those patients had lived at birth, age 10, age 20 and so on.
The result: Patients with the most common known melanoma mutations, called BRAF mutations, also had the highest UV exposure by age 20. Interestingly, they also had the most moles, another important melanoma risk factor.
What does that mean? It's not clear yet, but young, rapidly growing skin may be particularly vulnerable to damaging UV rays, especially as moles are developing, Thomas says. Or maybe early childhood sun exposure spurs moles to develop in the first place.
While sun exposure for young adults played some role, too, the association with BRAF disappeared at age 30.
But that isn't a license for adults to sunbathe: Another melanoma subtype, characterized by mutations in a gene called NRAS, is strongly linked to UV exposure by age 50, the study found.
Here's the problem: Until recently, sunscreens have filtered out mostly UVB rays that cause sunburns, not UVA rays, meaning people who depended only on sunscreen to prevent skin cancer may have gotten a false sense of security.
Today, many sunscreens promise "broad-spectrum" protection against UVA rays, too. But the government doesn't yet have testing requirements in place to prove that UVA protection.
The term broad-spectrum "means nothing. Anybody can make that claim," says a frustrated Dr. Darrell Rigel of New York University, a past president of the American Academy of Dermatology, which has long pushed to change that.
The soon-to-come FDA proposal will keep the SPF, or "sun protection factor," ratings on sunscreen bottles that refer only to UVB protection but add a UVA rating, too, says Shuren.
Until then, dermatologist Rigel has some advice:
_Use enough sunscreen. An adult needs the equivalent of a full shot glass, and a young child a good tablespoon-full. Most people put on too thin a coat to get good UVB coverage, much less whatever UVA protection a brand might offer.
_While official recommendations say wear at least an SPF-15 sunscreen daily, a super-high SPF will counter some of the thin-coat problem.
_Products with the ingredient Helioplex a more sun-stable mix of the sunscreen ingredients avobenzone and oxybenzone seem to provide longer-lasting UVA protection, although they can be more expensive. Another certified anti-UVA ingredient, Mexoryl, currently is sold only in sunscreen-containing moisturizer in the U.S.; it has long been sold in Europe.
_Apply sunscreen a half-hour before going outside. It takes that long to start working.
_And limit exposure during the peak UV hours of 10 a.m. to 4 p.m.
Overall sun exposure in childhood, not just sunburns, is a big key to who later develops DEADLY SKIN CANCER.
Interesting in that THEY say this is new evidence.
If my memory serves me correctly and it does, on this thread several weeks ago, I wrote about being exposed to different forms of light while in MKULTRA/Project Monarch because I wouldn't KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT.
THEY were going to produce a deadly skin cancer that would show up "over time" and accelerate the aging process.
These "light forms" were said to be much more harmful than the sun's rays.
I am now treating my arms and face for the damage that was done to my skin.
And, they just discovered this new evidence!!
Excuse my, profanity, please, as I wipe the tears from my eyes!
It's rainin' but there ain't a cloud in the sky
Musta been a tear from your eye
Everything'll be okay
Funny thought I felt a sweet summer breeze
Musta been you sighin' so deep
Don't worry we're gonna find a way
I'm waitin', waitin' on a sunny day
Gonna chase the clouds away
Waitin' on a sunny day
Without you I'm workin' with the rain fallin' down
Half a party in a one dog town
I need you to chase the blues away
Without you I'm a drummer girl that can't keep a beat
And ice cream truck on a deserted street
I hope that you're coming to stay
I'm waitin', waitin' on a sunny day
Gonna chase the clouds away
Waitin' on a sunny day
Hard times baby, well they come to us all
Sure as the tickin' of the clock on the wall
Sure as the turnin' of the night into day
Your smile girl, brings the mornin' light to my eyes
Lifts away the blues when I rise
I hope that you're coming to stay
Who is he talking about in this song? His former wife, his present wife?
Did Patti leave and he hopes that she's comin' to stay?
He and Patti are worried about something, but they're going to find a way.
Cause he's waitin' on a Sunny Day.
Without WHOM is he just a party in a one dog town?
WHOM does he need to chase the blues away?
When was this song written?
Before he was married, while he was married, in between marriages, which was a short period.
I don't know. Don't even feel like looking for the date.
Just wondering cause he's singing this song with his wife on stage.
Maybe it's just an audience grabber, as they say.
I know, his fans think he wants them to come stay with him.
Is that it?
Can't tell you how many times this song was referenced while I was on his site.
The song, "Waitin' on a Sunny Day" with the verse, "don't worry, we're gonna find a way," reminds me of something I said in an email.
I think I was questioning the PLAN. Like, how is this going to come about. You don't have a plan and on a thread the message was posted.
"You know I would have had to."
Oh, certainly, I know you would have had to, but at that point, as I detected, the plan was to emotionally traumatize me, psychologically abuse, sexually trigger me, control me, etc., etc., etc., perhaps to the point of institutionalization and/or suicide.
Because remember, this same poster said to me. "You know what you have to do."
At one point, in another email to this same poster, I said, "you haven't offered me anything." What can you provide me?
He commented in a thread, cBS, which meant bullshit.
Oh, I get it. Everything offered to me are in the lyrics of his songs.
You know, that's where all the evidence, hidden messages, mixed messages and triggers are contained as well.
This is about the silliest thing I have ever heard child-like "adults" do.
Who sold more albums, McCartney or Springsteen? Of course, McCartney did, overwhemlingly. People happen to like his new CD, but, now, Springsteen's fans have to make up excuses. Not enough PR, blah, blah, blah.
For the life of me, I can't understand why they care.
Is it their money? Do they have some vested interest in his sales?
Firstly, Springsteen's latest CD/DVD is nothing but recycled songs from his first CD with the Seeger Sessions band (We SHALL OVERCOME) together with some old songs.
So, it's not really a NEW relase. It's recycled material.
The DVD is of a live show with the Seeger Sessions Band with the same recycled songs.
It's repackaged material, people. Not the same thing as a CD with NEW songs.
Don't you realize that's how you've been supporting him?
Boots/repackaged, recycled, live DVD shows.
Did you ever think that maybe his CD sales alone don't alone don't cut it?
Did you ever think maybe that's why tours like he does because his CD sales alone don't cut it.
Remember, he's one of their cash cows and they must produce!!!!