Back in the day, incarcerated and among them, sexual programming triggered, I was informed by the OTHERS that to these people, sex equals love and love equals sex.
I knew this, as well.
They were/HE was insatiable. Like I was suppose to prove it all night. Stay up all night having sex.
Sex, sex and more sex. That's all he ever wanted.
When HE would tell me that he loved me, I was aghast. How can you love me? This isn't love. The way you treat me isn't love. You don't know what love is.
Paul Simon has a song with a verse that goes something like this:
"doesn't feel like love, feels like a threat."
That's what it felt like on the site. Love me, or else we will keep you here, control you, emotionally, psychologically and mentally abuse you.
"GIVE ALL OF YOUR LOVE TO ME," within the lyrics of a song, were posted frequently.
This, because, remember, we have the evidence about your past government abuse. NOT!
Remember, we are the witnesses, we are the OTHERS. Not!
I would be the one who has the evidence of your past abuse of me.
I was instructed that I should, whenever possible, refrain from attaining pleasure when engaging with them/HIM in any sexual activity. I should make an effort not to have an orgasm, otherwise, I might fall into their belief that sex is love and love is sex.
Because I would not allow them/HIM to take control of my sexual programming completely and, because I would not enjoy or have an orgasm when possible, I would then be taken to a heightened state of sexual arousal, tied up, while HE/they watched me suffer.
This also is a way for them to train their BETA sex slaves into "spontaneous orgasms."
If I was going to get them/HIM sexually aroused, which, of course, was of their own doing, and I told them so, but blamed on me, and not finish the job, they would do the same to me.
This, to teach me a lesson.
On the site, it was stated that I was to receive a taste of my own medicine. This, due to the fact that I refused to stop being intimate with my husband and I refused their total control of me. As usual, the blame is placed on the victim. As if I was sexually triggering him. As if I was demanding that he stop having sexual relations with his wife. As if I was controlling, manipulating and handling him. As if I was emotionally, psychologically and mentally abusing him. As if I was implanting false memories and calling them up. As if I was changing his state of consicousness. As if I was blackmailing him.
With sexual programming intact and through the exchange of erotic emails, I was brought to a heightened state of arousal and then communication ended.
There was much sexual talk on the site and users who were posting BETA triggers, as well.
I found myself emailing him with my sexual programming in full force and receiving no communication in exchange. I was kept in this state for a long time. Can't remember how long.
This to teach me a lesson. I hadn't behaved. I hadn't given all of my love to him. I hadn't stopped having sexual relations with my husband.
It was abuse and a form of torture, manipulation, control.
It was recognized as such.
I never turned the other way from him as suggested on the site when disinformation was called up because I was "sent away" and brainwashed against him.
Many musicians have roots to the "satanic cult." Many do not write their own lyrics. Many songs/lyrics have "hidden messages" directed at mind control victims. Many musicians, in a subtle way, refer to the "cult" of which they are a part; however, this interpretation would not be as evident to those who were not exposed to the "cult."
Many times, talented and creative children are sought after by the group who wish to exploit their gifts and as a result, you become their prisoner. Fortune and fame is difficult to snub your nose at if you are someone who has had very little. If you are someone who was abused at home, their abuse seems normal. Many times, these children have already mastered the technique of "fragmenting." Many times, their parents have connections to the Mafia, Freemasonry, etc.
One need look no further than Michael Jackson to see how exploited and abused he has been within the music industry and how acceptance of pedophilia by someone famous is normal. Although he is probably guilty, he was not sentenced; and those who have abused him not sentenced either.
The story of Peter Pan is a "mind control" theme. One never grows up. Pedophilia's like children. So no matter how old one becomes within the cult, a child-like alter can always be called out to satisfy their handler/controller's sexual deviant behavior and the sexual deviant behavior of all others whom they are made to have contact with whether it be for blackmail purposes in Congress or not; whether it be diplomatic blackmail in other regions of the world.
It is not a coincidence that Michael Jackson's ranch was called "NeverLand." It is not a coincidence that "less fortunate" children were welcome there. These are their prey. Those without resources to fight them.
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